Friday, September 30, 2011
Ahh! Good old reliable Friday.
I love Fridays because they are filled with such promise. Such excitement. Not knowing what is to come of the weekend. Knowing that it will be a million times better than work.
And then comes Sunday night. The ultimate downer. I feel like a little kid again, the day before school starts after Summer vacation. Although, I'm stuck in a Groundhog's Day story with it happening every week (yes I know it was every day, but get the comparison).
Oy. This weekend is filled with what every weekend is filled with. All of the crap you don't have time to do during the week. Grocery shopping, cleaning, walking the dog, blah blah blah.
This weekend we have our Engagement pictures, so that takes up a good chunk of our Sunday. Of course, that is pending that Big A can make it through work today and tomorrow without effing himself up. Again. His burn has miraculously healed and you can't even see it. We might get some pictures without the hat after all. Yay.
I am currently trying to figure out that schedule. Since I need to fit in lunch with the family AND the football game as well. It is going to be a busy day. BUT, until then...there is always Friday night and all of Saturday before us. Oh the joy.
I know I am lacking a bit today, but the ADD is kicking in full force and it is hard to focus on one thing. Case in point. I just wrote 3 separate blog entries, while discussing when I should go get my eyebrows waxed with a co-worker. Yeap. It is one of those days.
So I think I will head out. Take care of said furry caterpillars on my face. Run around in circles a few times to get some of the pent up energy out and hopefully become a productive part of society for the afternoon. Although, that might be difficult. We shall see.
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend! And wish us luck on the pictures. Hopefully we can get some good ones! Adios!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Where? Who knows.
I find myself wanting to rush time lately. Like, I always am looking forward to something that is making me count the minutes away. The end of the work day. The end of the work week. Which is pretty standard right?
Except for that I am doing it with the wedding too. And I know that is completely normal to be counting down the days from excitement, but I'm getting nervous that I am going to be missing out on some important things because I am waiting for something else to happen.
I think my biggest issue with the wedding is that I feel like there is so much to do and there is nothing that I can do right now. It is still too early to really do anything. Right now. We are good on our to do list. Ask me again in January when the list gets crazy. I might be wishing to be back to these days.
I've also been feeling very strange lately. I just feel like I have no patience at all. Which, on the one hand, with some things going on I'm just done. I don't care about them anymore. I don't want to deal with them. I just want everything to go back to the way it was, but I'm not sure if it can. On the other hand, it leaves me with no patience for normal things and normal people that don't deserve me wanting to bite their faces off and say "really?!".
I've never been good at the whole different reactions, different situations. I've always been very all or nothing. So I am learning to be a little more patient with things. Bite my tongue a little bit more. Be a little more understanding. Except that it is hard. And there are a couple situations that keep nagging at me and honestly make me want to scream. I don't know what to do with it and just when I think that everything is better, it all comes creeping and crawling up again. (And these are the times I wish that my blog was private).
I guess sometimes things are perfect. And I know that. I just don't know what to do with myself. My problem is just how to find a balance between wanting to tell people to go eff themselves and being a doormat. And I'm struggling with it. So right now, I am just keeping my trap shut and hoping that all of my problems magically disappear.
Anyone thing that will work? I got my fingers crossed.
Monday, September 26, 2011
I've seen this going around and thought that it looked like fun. Well...at least it was something to kill time until lunch. Heh.
- If I were to get pregnant…to be honest, I would have mixed emotions. Obviously, I would be excited, but we are getting married in 11(ish) months and the timing isn’t exactly awesome. But, we would figure something out.
- If I could have any job in the world…I would want to be an event planner. You know one of those planners with huge budgets to do all of this amazingly awesome stuff. Maybe even a wedding planner, but I think I should go through it as a bride first before I tell anyone else what to do.
- If I had a day to myself I would…say that I would do all of this great stuff, but I probably wouldn’t. I would tackle as much as I could on my to do list. If I had a day to myself and wasn’t allowed to do chores? I’d sleep in. Take Mr. Fresh for a nice long walk. Maybe get a massage. Read. Relax. Treat myself to a delicious dinner that I didn’t have to cook. Get a manicure and pedicure. (Although this would also require money I don’t have)
- If I could get married all over again… since we aren’t married yet, I don’t really know what I would say. BUT, if I could start the process over again. I would definitely look at more venues before deciding on anything.
- If I could live anywhere in the US…probably somewhere that is warm all year round. But I would have to drag my family and friends with me.
- If I could have any talent in the world…I would want to be better at drawing in painting. I would like to think that I have some basic skills when it comes to art, but most of the time I can’t get my work to match my imagination. Which becomes frustrating and defeating.
- If you met me in real life I think you would find…that I really am as all over the place as I am on my blog. The difference is that I don’t verbalize my crazy as much as I write about it. And I swear too much.
- If I could go back to school and get a different degree…I would maybe go for Communications because I think it would help me with my current job. Or maybe English/Journalism so that I could maybe find a career where I could write.
- If money were not an object…I would be living in a house. I would have the wedding of my dreams. I would have a car that has a fully functioning gas gauge (instead of one that has quite obviously been smoking crack). I would pay off all of my loans. I wouldn’t feel guilty about buying Starbucks more than once or twice a month.
- If I could shop at one store for the rest of my life…it would be Target. They have everything there. Clothes. Stuff for the house. Beauty products. One stop shopping.
- If we get another pet…I would get another Border Collie. I know they are a lot of work and YES I remember how much of a pain Mr. Fresh was when he was a little baby, but they are amazing dogs and I don’t think I would ever own anything else.
- If I could go on a trip RIGHT NOW…I would go visit my nanny in Ireland. I haven’t seen her since May and I would love to catch up with her. Plus, I could see my family that I haven’t seen since we were there for my grandfather’s funeral in September of 2007 (the downside of having family who live in another country).
- If I had to choose between a house cleaner and a personal chef…it would take a lot of time to decide. I think ultimately, I would choose a house cleaner because I actually enjoy cooking when I don’t have to worry about cleaning up or the 8,000 other things I need to be doing around the house.
- If I had the option of plastic surgery… I think that I could get breast reconstruction after having kids. Well… depending on how horrible they look. Haha. I would also want to see if they could do something about the scars on my stomach. I have four belly button piercings all around my belly button at one point, which was cool until one got ripped, and two of them grew out. Doesn’t look too cute now.
Friday, was your typical rainy New England weather. But, I didn't mind. If it rains in the Summer I get pissed. Spring or Fall (especially Fall) I actually enjoy it (as long as it isn't overkill).
I'm Irish. Rainy weather is in my blood. I like to think that is the reason I can enjoy a nice rainy day. Or "an Irish day" as my dad calls it.
Friday was one of those days. And my favorite place to watch the rain is in the Boardroom in my office. It is right near my desk and no one ever uses it. Seriously, it has a beautiful view and it gets used for cake for birthdays (which we don't really do anymore) or the random days that our meeting rooms are all full. Which is almost never.
Case in point:
The view. Although it is obviously clearer when it is sunny, but check it out.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Like most Fridays, you are going to make me earn my weekend. I started with a juggling act with all of my crap trying to get into my car. And then I hit the hang up button on my phone during a conference call instead of the mute button. Just call me Captain Smooth. (we won't even talk about the car accident that almost was yesterday as a result of seeing a gigantic alien spider trying to climb in my car window. ug)
I have so far completed 2 days of my wonderful new fitness plan. My armpits hurt a bit less today (thanks for asking) but my abs still feel like someone used them as a punching bag. Awesome.
I felt really good yesterday. It was my just cardio day and I found myself killing the incline on the treadmill and rocking the elliptical. Let's just say that I made them by bitch. (And the fact that I actually remembered my IPod for the first time helped...a bunch. It is SO boring without music). I finished off the evening with a nice salad with a little bit of Taco meat made with Ground Turkey and Fat Free Sour Cream. And then when I realized that I was under my calories even before my exercise points, I poured myself out one cup of wine.
Yeap, I looked up the nutrition info and measured out what I could drink. Big A thought that I was hilarious and was probably wondering why I wasn't just drinking out of the bottle as per usual. He thinks he is so funny.
We have quite the exciting weekend planned. I have a Wine Night planned with some of the most fabulous ladies that I know (which is super exciting especially since I just found out that my Moscato is on the lower side of calories. Woo hoo!) for Saturday. And then...weather permitting...we are supposed to have our Engagement pictures! Which also means that I need to figure out what the hell we are wearing.
Sidenote: What the hell am I supposed to wear to an Engagement shoot? Am I supposed to have multiple outfits? Anyone have any tips and tricks? Big A and I are both clueless. Shocking, I know.
Other than that, it is going to be a regular weekend. The first weekend of Fall might I add. Who is excited?
Aaaaand apparently, I'm not feeling it today. I think I need to hook up a caffeine IV and I should be all set haha. Hope you all have a fabulous weekend planned as well!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
(And as a warning...this is going to be a post about weight loss...again. So feel free to skip over to your next blog if you aren't in the mood)
After my little pity-party that I had yesterday, I was determined that it was going to be the motivation that I needed. If some 3 foot tall 90 year old woman thought that I was Shamu in a wedding dress... than I could use that (after I find her shop and attack it with stink bombs...but whatever...I'm not bitter).
But alas, it was a nice day yesterday so I decided that I would go home and take the dog for a walk instead. However, when I got home I noticed the 8 million things that needed to be done. Dishes needed to be washed. Laundry needed to be folded. Etc. etc. And I did nothing. Shocking.
Today, I have a meeting with a girl from my gym (who I actually went to high school with) who is going to give me some tips and tricks to use. I am hoping that it gives me some umph, because shoving McDonalds down my throat and sitting on my ass isn't going to help anything. Just saying.
Shannon has a post today talking about how much of a rockstar she is. She has lost so much weight since having her baby and I am so proud of her! Except for the fact that she actually has a good excuse (the adorable KP) for why she gained the weight. I have no excuse for whatever happened (although I call them love pounds and blame Big A for them all the time) to me. That I am jealous of.
So Shannon will be my inspiration too!
I just wish that I had someone sitting next to me all day slapping the crap food out of my hand and dragging me to the gym. I wish I had money for one of those big mean trainers who scream at you for months, but break down in tears with you when you reach your goal. I wonder if Jillian Michaels is in my price range? Maybe?
I have my dress appointment in like 25 days and that is not enough time for a miracle.
Speaking of miracles...this wedding is killing me. Every single extra cent that I have is going into our savings account. Except for the fact that it now means that I have no money. I guess that's the price you pay though. It will be all done in less than a year and I can breath again. I have 2 months off my car insurance so that should help. And then it is almost tax time. Oy. This would be the time to win the lottery. I guess I would have to enter first though. Oy.
Other than that life is peachy. I'm attempting this new thing called "keeping the house clean". And trying to get Big A on board with it. I told him his new job was vacuuming. I'm not sure how well this is going to go over, but it is a bit of a science experiment at this point. I got him to fold two huge piles of laundry with me last night without a fight. I did give him 24 hours notice though.
There we go.... "Tomorrow Big A, you will vacuum the rug. Sound good? and then remind him periodically. He vows to jump on board when we get a house. Even says he will do laundry. But, he's never been one to just change his habits overnight, so I am breaking him in now. I figure I have about a year and a half. That might be enough time. Maybe.
Work is a pain in the behind, but when isn't it. I just keep staring at my to do list wondering who is going to get it done. Eventually, I will have to realize that it is me. Today is not that day however. It is raining and I am alone in the office. I think I might go take a nap. (HA! If only!). Hope you all are having a fabulous Tuesday! I'm sure you are all counting down the days til Friday again!
Monday, September 19, 2011
Everyone kept saying congratulations, when is the wedding, your ring is beautiful, and then "oh have you decided on (enter whatever they were trying to sell me here). After the first few people, I was done talking. But I smiled like a good girl and made it through.
I had heard that there would be dresses there to try on, but I wasn't planning on actually doing it. I had planned on having this big moment with my mom, L, my future MIL, and my future SIL when I found my dress. And my FMIL and FSIL weren't there. But there wasn't anything that I LOVED, so I figured it couldn't hurt. I tried on a total of three dresses. None of them actually being my size, but it was fun to get an idea of it all. There was one I didn't like at all, so you won't be seeing pictures of that.
Except for the fact that the back made it look like I had four bums. Oh such a pretty dress and then the back had to ruin it. Ick!
They were, of course, trying to get me to buy this dress on the spot. They had already asked me if I had tried anything on before, and I had said no. I don't know why they thought that I would jump at buying the third dress I tried on, especially when I HATED the first two. And this wasn't my size. Yes, you heard that. They were trying to sell me THIS dress. Which was too small for me.
Friday, September 16, 2011
I'm kind of upset about it.
This morning I woke up. Got ready and got into my car.
And this is what I saw:
I'm not ready for the Fall. I mean don't get me wrong. I HEART the Fall with a passion. BUT...I love the Summer. I love Summer clothes. I love not being cold. I love flip flops.
Ug. If Big A and I could get all of our friends and family to move with us, we definitely wouldn't be living in Assachusetts where the weather is either freezing, hot as hell, or rainy. That is all.
Whatevs. I can't help thinking that Winter is right around the corner. Then comes Spring, Summer, and then our Wedding. It will be here before we know it. EEK!
I told Big A that it was 51 weeks from yesterday. He asked if this was going to be his life for the next 51 weeks, a constant countdown. I told him yes. But I'm kind of freaking myself out doing it, so I don't know how long it will last. Haha.
This week has been ridiculously long. In 15 minutes, I will be on overtime. My boss told me to go home. I don't know whether I want the money more or the time. I'm exhausted, but time and a half sounds pretty nice too. We will see how I feel I suppose. Haha.
I'm looking forward to laying low tonight (which means something crazy will happen), sleeping until like 4 PM tomorrow (that may be only a slight exaggeration), and the Bridal Expo on Sunday. I'm hoping to get some stuff done so that I can sit on my big behind for the next few months and not have to do anything. Sounds like a plan to me.
Does anyone else have anything exciting going on? Anyone else running on empty and waiting for 5 o'clock? Anyone have any suggestions for those pesky fruit flies who are slowly taking my sanity?
Questions? Comments? Smart ass remarks? We take 'em all.
Well...I hope you all are having a Fabulous Friday! Thank GOD it finally came!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Yesterday, I was stuck in a meeting all day with zero signal. On both of my phones. Ug.
It went off without a hitch, so all of my hard work paid off. It was great to see everything come together. Even better to see it over.
I didn't even get to do So What! Wednesday. I can't remember the last time I missed one. Sad.
I was too exhausted when I got home to do anything. I barely managed to throw myself into the shower. Big A convinced me to go out to dinner for Date Night though. We got some gift cards for our Engagement Party, so we took full advantage. It was nice to have a night out. Especially when we didn't have to pay for it!
Tonight we are going over N & J's house. It's been a weekly thing for us to get together and have dinner. Always turns out to be a good time. I just hope I can get my 6th wind by the time we head over there.
Other than that... the only thing getting my by is that tomorrow is Friday. I have no clue what is going on for the weekend (other than the Bridal Expo on Sunday) and I like it. I can't wait to sleep in and relax for once. I'm really feeling how stressed out I am and it isn't making me the nicest person ever.
No one wants to hang out with a Grouch. Blah.
So, I hope you enjoyed my super interesting update on life. I will hopefully be back at some point in life with something meaningful to say. Until now, I am drowning my sorrows in my Mosacto and waiting for Big A to come home.
Sidenote: Does anyone have any tricks on how to get rid of fruit flies? I don't know where they came from, but no matter how much I clean they will.not.go.the.eff.away. Thoughts? Suggestions?
Monday, September 12, 2011
It is called Together. And says: "For those who have found their true partner in love and life". It is perfect. L had one just like it (maybe the same one) and she put it next to her wedding cake at the reception. I love that idea!
And that's all I gots! N took a BUNCH of pictures and I'm so glad she did because I was running around everywhere that day. L took most of the ones on my camera. Including this last one, which is by far one of my most favorite pictures of us.
It is all starting to feel pretty real now. I'm just so happy and excited. I have a Bridal Expo this weekend, so hopefully we can cross some things off our to-do list. I was talking with Big A's Aunt and she made me feel SO much better about what we already have done. Venue, Florist, I think we have our Photographer, and we pretty much have the invitations picked out too. Although some friends have offered to make some for us, so we will see how that plays out.
Alright, I'm sure you are all gagging over there from my mushy-gushyness. Don't worry, give me 20 minutes and I'll be back to my good 'ole cynical self.
Friday started with me running out of work and heading over to L's house. We went to the mall in search for something for me to wear to the Engagement Party. Despite having way too much fun trying everything on, we didn't end up finding anything. We did however learn that leopard print in "in" right now. Don't know who made the decision to bring animal prints back in full force, but I would like to thank them for limiting my clothing choice. There was one non-animal print item to every 20 animal print item. And I wish I was kidding.
So alas, we cut our losses and went to eat. However, the mall closed while we were at dinner and we had to be super sneaky about getting back in since my car was on the complete other side of the building. Ug.
Here's a little peak at the fun we had:
I found this little lady in Bath & Body Works. Had to buy it. It has Sweet Pea hand soap in it. My favorite!
Saturday night, Big A and I went out to dinner and just spent some time by ourselves. We were in bed by like 10 watching TV. We knew we would have a long day on Sunday so we took it easy.
Do you think she is trying to tell him something? Haha.
Friday, September 9, 2011
You may have noticed a new little ticker at the top of the blog...
Didn't notice yet? Take a gander.
Yeap...it is counting down the days until our wedding. Which means...
WE HAVE A WEDDING DATE!!!
Don't be confused by the days...next year is a leap year.
The date is September 8th, 2012.
I couldn't be more excited.
Big A and I signed the contract and left the deposit yesterday (I struggled to make sure it was all set on the one year mark and my coordinator was nice enough to get it all done quick quick).
I am in love with my coordinator (not like that, Big A is the only one for me). She is absolutely fabulous and when I went all crazy OCD chick on her with the contract she accepted all of my changes and had the new and improved contract back to me within 24 hours.
She gave me a huge hug when I was leaving and told me to take a deep breath because now the fun could start. I feel so comfortable that our wedding is in her hands.
I cried when I was leaving her. Not sad, but happy. After everything that has been going on. The venue bullshit. The drama. The crap. It was nice to finally have a big step done and can sleep easy.
I'm so excited. This time next year... I will be a married woman.
Let the fun begin..and the panic attacks! Haha.
This is a picture of the ballroom set up for a wedding. We won't have those chairs ($10 a piece? No thanks!) though. We will have the chair covers in the first picture.
So there you have it. We have a venue. We have a date! (God I just LOVE saying that!)
What a great way to start the weekend!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Seriously...I'm supposed to drive over an hour to one of our other offices for a BBQ today... and it is pouring... and I didn't want to go in the first place...not happening.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Welcome to today.
I just feel like everything is spinning around and around and I can't get my bearings.
This goes for all aspects of life. Work, friends, family, home, etc. etc. etc.
I just feel like everything is such a cluster.
So, needless to say, Big A and I didn't do much this weekend. We took some time to chill out and regroup. That's about it.
We spent some time with friends of ours Friday night and a little BBQ action on Monday, but that was about it. Saturday, we stayed in and watched a movie. (Hall Pass...eh...it was OK. I thought it was going to be funnier).
Sunday, we kind of just hung out. I met up with my mom and my future mother in law to hatch out a plan for the engagement party. I think we have everything all figured out, so my OCD feels a lot better. It should be a lot of fun. As long as I figure what the hell I should wear.
Sunday night, was family dinner (which also meant 16 loads of laundry...yay). And then Monday we did a bit of cleaning (figured out the the vacuum was broken, so that stopped the cleaning) and had a little BBQ with some friends.
I got to shoot a BB gun which was of course the highlight of my weekend (other than spending all that QT with Big A). I was a little shaky at first, but once I figured out to line up the shot, I was good. The boys shook up soda cans and we shot at those. It was fun to watch them explode everywhere. I told Big A that we need to get to the shooting range. This was way too much fun!
Other than that. The weekend was meant for relaxation. We are still finalizing wedding stuff, so when I have a definite date and some details I will share with you all. The girl gets back into the office tomorrow, so hopefully I can go over there and figure everything out.
Eek! So much to do. Hope you all had a wonderful weekend.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
My problem is that I do most of my posting during slow times at work. Which means that all of my pictures are at home. Then I have full intentions of adding pictures when I get home, and quickly forget that fact that I normally forget things after 5 minutes.
Anyway...I was dying my hair this afternoon and I started going through my pictures (because when you have already destroyed the bathroom by covering it in hair dye, you learn to keep still in the rest of the house...and put a plastic bag on your head for protection HA) and realized that I never posted pictures from bridesmaid wine night.
I thought I had a lot more pictures, but apparently in my wine fueled haze, all that flashing was coming from someone else's camera. Go figure. We had a great night though, so I wanted to show the pictures. I have a great group of girls, so we had an amazing time. We drank. We ate. There was a Wilson Phillips sing-a-long. Some Michael Jackson choreography. Ya know the usual. And of course the next morning headache. That was a blast.
This is us before taking the shots that L brought. Everyone looks a little excited and a little nervous.
Friday, September 2, 2011
So, quite unfortunately, the Patriots did not deliver the performance I was expecting. It was the last Pre-Season game, so I did not throw anything at the TV, but the last few minutes were pretty painful. I may have had some choice words to say to Mallet. And if I was Belichick, I would have even more choice words to say to him. But alas, I am not. So… unless I get into the hate mail business then he will never know how I feel. Whatevs.
I wish I had more of a wedding update for you, but alas I do not. I will say that we are currently working with a location and we should have the contract signed soon (I hope) , but with everything that happened, I don’t want to say anything until it is final.So, I will share with you some inspirational pictures that I have for the wedding.
And the fact that I have become absolutely obsessed with Pinterest. I added a button on the right hand side of the blog if you want to follow me and see all of my ideas. I started with just throwing everything into one big wedding board, but I’m in the process of dividing it out more. So I apologize for the absolute insanity that is my Pinterest right now.
So here is my inspiration right now. My plan (if I can somehow pull it off) is to have an Old Hollywood Glamour theme. Romantic. A little glitzy. Swoon.
I would seriously give my right leg for this venue. It would be perfect. I'm doubting it is in my tiny budget though. Or anywhere near me. I'm highly disappointed with Massachusetts venue choices. I've seen amazing ones out of state. Meh... the grass is always greener I suppose.
And this is what happens when your taste doesn't meet your budget. I found these invitations. Under the title, "Roaring 20's". Black. Classy. Feathers. Glitz. Perfect right? Ummm... check out the SAMPLE price. Yeah... um... no. (And I know that the picture is fuzzy, but yeah... that says $150 for the sample...one sample).
That's all for today. I'm hoping that we get the venue stuff sorted out so that we can breathe a little easier. I'll keep you update because I know you are all DYING to know! Haha.