Monday, April 16, 2012

Sometimes...

Sometimes, things in life get hard.

Let's be honest. Sometimes in life things fucking suck.

There's no way around it. There's no way to avoid it, you are just in a horrible point in life and those are the facts.

And most times, in those situations, there are two options.

1) You can pretend like nothing ever happened. Brush it all under the rug. Pretend that it isn't ripping your heart out. Pretend that it isn't tearing you up inside. Put on a smile and move along.

OR

2) You have to take the hard road. The road less travelled. The road that isn't fun. That isn't easy. That is more work than you ever thought you had in you.

That decision sucks. There is nothing that makes you want to be 5 years old again, sitting on your mom's lap, hugging your Teddy Bear MORE than those moments.

But, those are the life defining moments. Those are the moments that make you who you are. Those are the moments that define friends. That define the weak from the strong.

Unfortunately, that second road, doesn't exactly make you a popular person. It hurts people. It angers people. It blows things up quicker than you ever imagined. And sometimes it feels that no one else knows that you HAVE to do this. That you HAVE to walk down that road. Because you owe it to no one other than yourself to be HONEST with your feelings.

Friends come. Friends go. And through life those moments define who will stay and who will go. Because those who understand that you need to take the hard road. The ones who understand that you would be lying to yourself and everyone else if you pretended that everything was find. Those are the ones who stick around. Those are the ones who support you. THOSE are the ones who offer you their hand and walk down that road with you. Not because they have to, but because they WANT to.

Because they fully understand how hard it is for you. Hard much it hurts. How much you would rather everything be all sunshine and roses, but it can't be.

Those are the ones who truly hold your heart.

That's not to say that the others were never true friends. It just means that at some point in life, as we change and progress. As we mold more into the people that we become. Some get it. And some don't. And it is sad to see those who don't get it. You mourn the loss of the friendship and the love that was once felt. But, you can't fault someone for not understanding you. Because then you would be faulting them for how they are. Sometimes people just don't end up on the same page.

Or the same book. The same shelf. Sometimes not even the same library.

At some point, you need to just appreciate every moment you had with those people. The memories you shared. And thank them for being with you thus far in the journey.

And then take the hands of those who are still by your side and work through the rest.

Because sometimes, all you have is moving forward. You can't go back. You have to own your decisions and own yourself.

And those are the moments that you find, at the end of the day, you are 100% comfortable with yourself. Even when it is hard. Even when it isn't easy. Even when it hurts. Because at the end of the day, when everyone else is gone, and everyone else has fallen asleep, you are alone with you.

That's the person you need to be honest with. YOU.

3 comments:

  1. Couldn't agree more! Hope everything is okay!

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  2. Totally get this!! I hope everythings ok hun! If you need someone to vent to let me know! :-) I'm always happy to hear from you! xoxo

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  3. I hear you, lady!! Keep on keepin' on. :)

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