Friday, November 30, 2012

Friday's Letters

Oh Friday's Letters. I <3 you="you">
Let's begin, shall we.

Dear Sleep, oh how I love you. I get so sad every morning when we are broken apart. I wish we could be together more. I'm doing my best. Last night I threatened bodily harm on my husband to turn the TV off so that we could be reunited again. If that's not love, I don't know what love is.

Dear Marizzle, please excuse the hot mess that my hair is tomorrow. Although, you should be prepared since I don't let anyone else touch it but you, and I haven't seen you since the wedding. Yikes!

Dear Husband, thank you so much for the impromptu date night last night. Chile con queso and margaritas... you sure know the way to my heart. Conversely, when I say "For the love of Jesus Christ will you just shut off the TV already" that means we have reached Defcon 1 and shit is about to get real. Love you though. Smooch!

Dear Weekend, ohthankyoubabyjesusthatyouarehere. Love you! You, me, and sleep should have a threesome. Shhh... it will be our little secret.

Dear Dunkin Donuts White Chocolate Mocha Coffee, I am officially obsessed with you. Seriously. With a slightly less sweet taste (because I can never get through all of it) than the Starbucks White Chocolate Mocha, half the calories, and half the cost. I hope we never have to part. I may or may not have had 4 of you already this week!

Dear Work, jeezy creezy you are busy for a Friday. Cut it out.

Dear Pats, see you on the 10th!!! ;)

Dear Boss Man, you are freaking awesome!!!

Dear Readers, get ready for an announcement next week. Yeah Buddy!

That's all for today!

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Warm Milk, Penny Candy, & Chocolate Milkshakes

I debated whether I should post this or not. I didn't want to be a Debbie Downer, but I didn't get into this whole blog world to sugar coat how I feel. Last night was a hard one. I have no idea why. And I'm feeling better today. But last night...was the worst. I guess sometimes it just sneaks up on ya.

It seems that things like this seem to pop up when you least expect it. You are just going through your normal life. And then bam. It just hits you like a ton of bricks. That little hole in your heart that you thought was still there.

For me it is smells, mostly. They bring me back to some time in my life. Sometimes it is a happy memory. Sometimes it males my heart ache.
Last night I was making hot chocolate. My first one of the season. I started warming the milk, mixing in the cocoa, and stirring it just so until it was all nice and mixed. Just like I was taught.

I've had about a million hot chocolates in my life. And they all remind me of my Nanny and Grandpa. How my brother and I used to go to their house to stay overnight. We always had the best time. And in the winter my Nanny always made us hot chocolate. I remember the giant Swiss Miss canister. She would let us scoop our own powder and then we both (my brother and I) would get a spoonful to eat.
But last night, when making my hot chocolate I caught a whiff of the warm milk and it immediately made me think of my Grandpa. I remember one night when my grandparents were watching us and I couldn't sleep. He made me warm milk and told me it would help me sleep. I never liked warm milk, but to this day, probably 20 years later it still makes me think of him.
I remember his smell. His voice. His jokes. How he always told us "not to talk to any strange cars" on our way home. Or how, without fail, he always asked if there were any checks for him in the mail...even if we weren't at his house.

And in that moment, I missed him. Like it was yesterday. A punch to the gut. The tears came rolling and suddenly it had seemed like a lifetime since I've seen him.
It has been a lifetime. An entire lifetime. He died in 2007. He never met Big A. He never saw me graduate college. He never saw me get married. I feel like he has missed such a huge part of my life and I would just give absolutely anything to see him again. To just hug him and talk to him. To go get a chocolate milkshake at Woolworths. To get penny candy at the Daily Market because his car, "The Blue Lady" would always head straight there after school no matter what Grandpa said. To have him call me his Rainbow Princess just one last time.
I just couldn't believe how much it still hurt. 5 years later. And I still remember every.single.minute of that day.

I don't know what it is. What it is about that day. I mean, with my Mimi it hurt so much. She was my first grandparent that I lost. It sucked and I was so angry that she was going to miss so much. But she was sick. It wasn't completely out of nowhere. We had many scares and many close calls but we had time to prepare.

With my Grandy it was awful. Watching the steady decline was devastating. Going from my grandfather to someone I barely recognized in a matter of months. I still remember the sound of his last breath and it will stay with me forever. And as much as I was in denial, I knew deep down that he was dying. I prepared myself for it every day. Every phone call. Every text. I expected it to be goodbye.

But with my Grandpa, I just suppose that I've never had peace with it because I never got a good bye. It came out of nowhere. My grandparents were in the process of moving back to Massachusetts from Florida, when we heard of news that my uncle died. They went to Ireland for the funeral and within a month, my grandpa had a heart attack. Which was devastating. But he was OK. He was up, he was talking. It literally took me the time to go pick up my car from a friend's house 15 min away and he was gone. Just like that.

No good bye. Nothing. Just. Gone.
Maybe that's my problem with it. Because I wasn't able to say good bye. But then again, how much would it have helped if I did? Ya know. I've posted this on here before, but it always seems to apply. My aunt wrote a poem when my Mimi died and it said:
"We are not to know which good bye will be the last.
For we might hold on to tight when the spirit is ready to soar"
Which I get. If I knew, I would have held on to that man so tight. Not letting him out of my sight. Not letting him go to Ireland. But it was his time. He always said that "when you are born, the day you will die is written right next to your name in a book. And that's the day it will happen".
Doesn't make it fair. Doesn't make it right. It just is.
I don't know if it's the holidays, or the wedding, or the anniversary of his death, or that my Nanny is going to Ireland next week, or just everything that is going on that makes me think "you are missing this! You are missing so much! You should be HERE."
Who knows. But, apparently I needed to get all of that out. I feel a bit better today. Still a little sad. But not as bad as I was. I don't know, I guess sometimes you just need a good cry to let it all out. Whether you understand why or not.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Wedded Bliss Wednesday: Your Husband's Style

I'm linking up with Allie and Kay for Wedded Bliss Wednesday.

And confession time. I totally cheated and just wrote last week's post right now. And then back dated it so it looks like I posted it on time. You can read it here.

(P.S. I just noticed on the counter on my blog that we have been married for 81 days! Take THAT Kim Kardashian!)

Moving on... this week is all about Hubby's style. Which, most of the people that know us will laugh, because Hubby has 2 maybe 3 styles.
What is your husband's style?

Big A's style is pretty simple. He's a mechanic and is always working in SOMETHING so he is usually in work clothes. All.the.time. Other than that, jeans, t-shirts, sweatshirts. That's it really. Here are his Summer & Winter looks.

The flannel look is when he gets fancy. ;)
Always wearing a work shirt or sweatshirt!
What is your LEAST favorite piece(s) of his wardrobe?

Eh, his stuff is pretty simple. There's nothing really to hate. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to look at him in his work clothes 24/7 but I guess why change if you don't have to. Ya know.

The only wardrobe thing that bothers me that he does is that he will tuck in his t-shirt when he puts on a sweatshirt. Which is fine. I get it. But if he gets hot, he'll take the sweatshirt off and leave the shirt tucked in. Which I can't stand. Dress shirts, totally get it. T-shirts. No thank you.

What would you love for your man to wear?

There's nothing really that I would want him to wear, clothing wise. I would like it if he wore cologne more often. He has this amazing smelling cologne but he NEVER wears it unless I force him to. Haha.

Other than that, I like the way he dresses! I'm kind of a no muss, no fuss kind of girl so it works for me.

That's all for today. Head on over and read all the other fabulous link-ups!

So What! Wednesday

Oh hey friends!

Better late than never, right?

I offered to drive out to one of our Operating Centers this morning to bring someone their laptop. We had a pretty huge event recently and people are going crazy, so I thought I would be nice and offer.

AND it got me out of the office for 3 hours, so I can't complain.

Anywho...FINALLY linking up with Shannon for So What! Wednesday!

This week I am saying So What! if...

* Everyone thinks that I am SO nice for driving out the laptop, when really it gave me 3 hours to chain smoke, listen to music, and just hang. The ride home was boring as hell, but whatever... I made it.

* I learned that my anti-social tendencies transfer over to driving as well. I don't like other cars near me. I like to be going the speed I want, in the lane that I'm in, and I don't really want to have to deal with anyone else. So I don't. I just do the speed I want in the lane I want. I'm sorry, 85 mph not fast enough for you? Go around me bitch! Smooch!

* It was a culture shock to go back to work on Monday. I mean, waking up early, getting myself dressed, actually functioning, NOT drinking and stuffing my face? This shit is for the birds man.

* I'm beginning to doubt if we are going to get a Christmas tree this year. Shit is crayzay and I don't know if I want to deal with it. There I said it.

* I wonder if I'm actually going to do a bday party as well. (T-minus 3 days until Birthday Month! Holler). See above for reasoning.

* I want to get Mr. Fresh snow boots despite the fact that Big A thinks I'm nuts. Homeboy LOVES to play in the snow. Seriously, I could leave him outside all day by himself (I don't) and he would just entertain himself. Throwing snowballs up in the air to himself with his nose (Adorable!) But, he gets snow stuck between his paws and they turn into icicles and get stuck to his hair. Can't be comfortable. On the other hand... he might bite me if I try. We'll see.

* I haven't been to the gym in about a week. With getting sick and drinking & overeating the holidays it was just too much. And then this week has been nuts. But... I've lost weight. Stress does have its upside!

* I missed Wedded Bliss Wednesday last week and I think I might do it anyway because I don't want to miss one. OCD much?

* I STILL haven't sent out the thank you cards for the wedding. I mean, I ordered them. I'm about 1/2 way through. I just haven't finished them. I DID ask Big A to get me stamps today. That's productive, right?

Alright, since I have like 12 more posts to write I'm going to end here.

Head on over to Shannon's blog and link up! Then check out all the other fabulous ladies who are linking up too!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Women Connect Link-Up

I'm going to distract you from realizing that I forgot to post wedding pictures with this nifty little link-up that Becky is doing. 

Did it work?

I apologize for using the word "nifty".

Anywho... moving on.

I've had this post open for awhile. Like Becky, I'm having trouble introducing myself. I mean what are you supposed to say really?

My name is Kayleigh, I like long walks on the beach, dinners at sunset....

It's weird.

So I'll just jump on in. I suppose.

I started blogging about 2 1/2 years ago. With this post. (Try not to fall off your seat with how exciting it is) I've always been into writing and I missed it. Plus, my family was kind of scattering across the country (and half of my family lived in another country) and I thought that it would be nice to start a little place where we could all keep in touch.

You know... kind of like Facebook stalking, only you are actually emotionally invested in this person's life. They can read and know what's going on, but we don't have to have those awkward "Sooo... how are things?" discussions because we already know. And then my cousin started a blog and I thought, "yep... now's the time to do it. We will all start blogs and keep in touch and everything will be perfect!"

Wishful thinking, I suppose, but it was a good thought at the time.

So, I wrote. About everything. And my only follower was my mom.

And honestly? It was a lot more freeing then. I could write about whatever I wanted because I knew the only person that I had to worry about was my mom. I mean, not that I talked trash or anything, but I wasn't worried about what other people would think. I didn't know that there was an entire Blogging world out there. And honestly, my most popular post was written when I didn't have any followers (well, other than my mom). It was this one, where I demonstrate my ADD. And then there's the one on Petite Lap Giraffes. That brought a lot of readers.

But, back then, I wrote because I didn't really know where I stood in life. I was two years out of college. Had just started my first office job. I was living with my boyfriend. And I was struggling with the fact that I was caught in this "in between" stage. Ya know. I still felt like a kid, but I quite obviously wasn't. I mean, kids don't pay rent, or have to clean their apartment, or have 401K's. Ya know. And I wasn't sure how much I liked it.

So, rather than spend lots of money on expensive therapy, I just poured it all out here.

And then in 2011, Big A and I got engaged. I had been stalking every single wedding blog that I could find and I had found all of these amazing ideas and all of these amazing people and I just felt like I had found my place. Ya know.

I made friends. REAL friends. People I talk to daily about everything. The only difference between them and my IRL friends is that I don't see them. And I like some of them better. (HA! Kidding!)

It wasn't until recently. After getting married and going through all of the planning and such that I realized that this truly was. I have documentation of one of THE most amazing and important times in my life. I can look back on most days and know exactly how I was feeling. I can remember little details which I'm sure I have already forgotten. And I am so so thankful that I have that.

And now... I'm a newlywed. Navigating through another transition in life, only this time, my place is clear. I mean, I've always had trouble with change. I'm no good at it. Keep me on the straight and narrow and I'll be fine as pie (is that a saying, or did I just make it up?). Take me on a detour and my palms start to get a little sweaty. Not really a fan. But honestly, right now, I feel like this is where I was supposed to be. My entire life. When everything felt wrong, and off, and sideways, and upside down. It was all just to get to this place.

I was meant to be Big A's wife. I have NEVER been more comfortable in a role, in a space, in a time, in my ENTIRE life. And I'm not saying it as the only thing that I am aspiring to be is a wife (although I am STILL trying to convince Big A that I would be  BANGIN' Trophy Wife if he just gave me a shot... and maybe a boob job). I'm just saying that I found my place.

And I have all of that right here. Most of that journey has been documented.

I think I'm rambling now. And maybe getting off topic. But I guess I'm just trying to explain where I am now.

I'm a wife. A daughter. A sister. A sister in law. A daughter in law. A cousin. A friend. A blogger. A co-worker.

I'm crazy OCD. I cry at sad movies, shows, commercials, newspaper articles. You name it. I'm anxiety-ridden by the littlest things. I've struggled with depression. I've made it through some effed up shit. I've been at rock bottom.

I've worked my way up. I've made something of myself. I've kicked ass in this little thing called life and got to somewhere in life that I want to be.

I'm incredibly loyal to my friends and family. I absolutely DESPISE lying and won't tolerate it. I cut out toxic people, and don't apologize for it. I love to laugh and giggle and just be absolutely incredibly insane with my friends, and my husband. I like to be myself, and won't spend much time around people who I can't do that with.

I spent a lot of time figuring out who this person was. And she isn't going back now. I am me.
Unapologetic me.

And I guess that's all.

If you've made it this far, then I congratulate you. I know there aren't any fancy pictures. But, I haven't had a good free rant in awhile. So I guess this was a good thing.

Thanks to Becky, for putting on this link-up so we can all get to know each other a little better. And ourselves a little better as well, I suppose.

Now. Your turn. What about you?

Monday, November 26, 2012

Thanksgiving Weekend Recap

Hello Lovers!

I have to say... it totally SUCKED getting back into the groove of things today.

Even Mr. Fresh was like, "why the f*@& are we getting up so early? Don't you know it's cold?".

Yeah... you know it is a rough morning when you have to force the dog to get up and go outside.

I had a lovely Thanksgiving break.

Which seemed short to me, but apparently not since Big A talked about how he would "feel the same way if I had ALL that time off". Yeah... ALL. I was sick Wednesday. I had Thursday off (like him) and then Friday. He unfortunately had to work this year the day after Thanksgiving (they switch off years). But he also had to work his normal Saturday, which sucks. Thanksgiving was fabulous.

We started at my aunt and uncle's house for appetizers. We chatted, laughed, drank.

Unfortunately, when they sat down to eat, we had to go.


As much as I would have LOVED to stuff my face twice, it was probably better that we left before eating. Last year was rough with literally two dinners, back to back (with only driving time in between).

We left my aunt and uncle's house and headed over to Big A's parents' house.

I absolutely LOVE his family so it was awesome to see all of them, but I do have to say... it still is hard sharing holidays. Ya know. I always feel like I am missing out on something.

Now, someone just needs to get a HUGE house and we can have EVERYONE together and I don't have to choose. Done and done.

Who wants to guess that my first post after THAT holiday will be about how much I love our families, but dear GOD there was too many people in one place??? Haha.

So we ate, chatted, drank some more. And oh my was I full after. Seriously, I was like my stomach feels the firmest it ever has in my entire life and it is ALL food. THAT'S how full I was.

After that, we watched our Wedding video, which Big A's uncle had brought with him. It was fun to see it all again.

Then it was time to go home. I immediately switched into PJ's and sat down to watch the Patriots game.

And holy SHIT that was a game! Seriously, amazing. I was fighting the nod, but about half way through the 4th quarter I asked Big A if there was any way that the Jets could still win and he said no. So I promptly passed the eff out.

Friday was spent hanging out with Mrs. C and snuggling with her adorable baby boy. And then Friday night was wine night, which also was our 2 year anniversary of wine night.

We celebrated with far too much wine and Dance Central. Typical.

Saturday was lovely. I met Jackums and N for lunch. Then returned home for a whole lot of nothing. Big A and I had a little impromptu date night when he got home and were in bed watching TV by 9:30.

I know. I know. We are CRAZY!

Sunday was a whole lot of errands. Capping the night off with a fabulous family dinner.

And then here we are. Monday. The bane of my existence. SO FAR AWAY from the next day off.


Welp, I hope you all had a FABULOUS Thanksgiving and that today isn't too rough for ya!

Here's hoping we can all make it through the week!


Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Wedded Bliss Wednesday: What are you Thankful for?

I'm linking up with Allie and Kay today for Wedded Bliss Wednesdays.

Better late than never right?

There's only one question today:

What are you thankful for in your marriage?

Honestly, I'm thankful to have someone that has my back. Good or bad. Up or down. I have someone by my side. I mean, I know I have family and friends and such like that. But being married, I dunno, it makes me feel a little less alone in the world. Ya know.

I don't mind asking Big A for help because that's what we do. He helps me. I help him. We pick up the slack when the other one is going crazy. He has it together, when I'm falling apart. I guess it just feels like we have the world on BOTH of our shoulders. Ya know.

I'm thankful to have someone to keep me safe. To make sure that the doors are locked tight. That everything in the house is shut down every night. That the heat is where it should be. That the AC is where it should be.

I'm thankful to have a built in best friend. Someone to giggle with every night before we go to sleep. It's like a permanent slumber party! To have someone to wake up next to every morning.

I'm thankful to have someone to get rid of the ridiculous amount of spiders that our apartment acquires. To take the trash out because I don't want to. To take the dog out at night because I am afraid of the dark. (Well actually, I am afraid of being kidnapped by a psycho serial killer and tortured like in all of the billion horror movies that I watch)

I am thankful to have someone to love me. ME. ALL of me. Every part of me. The way that I am. Not someone they want me to be. Someone who is with me because they WANT to be. Because they found their soul mate in me, like I found in them.

I am thankful for the fact that no matter how much I worry of get anxious about a situation, deep down I am really OK, because I know that Big A wouldn't let anything bad happen to us. He's a hard worker. A fighter. A strong man. I know he's got things under control.

I'm thankful that I have someone who I know our kids will be proud to call Dad. Who will bring them up right. Teach them right from wrong. Teach them how to stand on their own two feet and WORK for what they want. Someone who will beat the living piss out of anyone who attempts to harm them. Someone who will do everything that they can to give our kids a good life.

I am thankful for so many things. Most of all, I am just thankful for my MARRIAGE. Thankful that I was lucky enough to find "The One". We have a special thing going on and I try not to ever take it for granted. To always be thankful for the life that I have. Because not everything is guaranteed.

So What! Wednesday

So What Wednesday
This has to be my favorite So What! Wednesday!
Why? Because it is kind of my Friday and I get to see a whole lot of family tomorrow.
And that's kind of a lie since yesterday kind of turned into my Friday since I'm not at work today.
Anywho... I'm linking up with Shannon for this fabulous Pre-Turkey Day So What! Wednesday!
This week I am saying So What! if...
* I stayed home sick from work today. I mean, I could have gone, but I didn't feel like hacking up a lung and sniffling through the staff meeting. OR still being sick tomorrow. So I granted myself the day to rest.
* That I got annoyed yesterday when everyone acted like I had the plague when I was coughing because it was most of them that gave me this cold in the first place.
* That I am super annoyed that I didn't lose any weight this week after KILLING myself at the gym and watching what I eat. So annoyed that I want to eat an entire bag of peanut M&M's.
* I STILL can not wrap my head around the fact that tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Tomorrow people! Tomorrow.
* I have so many notifications on my phone that I just don't even want to bother checking any of them. I mean, I know none of it is THAT important. So. Eff it.
* The preview for "This is 40" cracks me up EVERY.TIME. And it's the same one every time.
* There is so much that I want to write about on this blog, but I can't. Not just yet.
* I'm procrastinating starting to prep stuff for tomorrow. I mean. I know that if I do it tonight then I won't have to deal with it tomorrow morning and I can just chill out. But still... why can't I just have little elves to do this for me.
* I planned on buying myself a new outfit for Thanksgiving but totally dropped the ball on it. Eh, probably works out for the best anyway. I shouldn't be spending any more money right now. Gotta save for the holidays!
Anywho... that's all I got for today. I'm going to finish watching Parenthood and then start prepping for tomorrow. And maybe at some point change out of my PJ's. Maybe.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Wedding Recap: Ceremony Part 1

So, I wasn't planning on doing this in multiple parts, but I kind of dropped the ball on this one.

I mean, it kind of works out, but I had full intentions of finishing the post last night.

However, between the gym, making dinner, washing the dishes, washing and folding four loads or laundry, and baking Big A muffins... I finally crashed around 9:30 PM and just couldn't be bothered to finish.

So, rather than keep you waiting... I figured I would give you at least what I had.

So here we go:

From left to right: My brother walking my grandmother down the aisle; my FIL and MIL; and my mother and brother.

Now time for the wedding party: D & Mrs. C; Pags & Pickles; Ry-Dizzle & Jackums; my Brosiff and Nat (he was so excited that he got to walk 3 people down the aisle), and MOH J$

I did pretty good the entire day in regards to keeping my shit together. However, when I got out of the elevator and saw my dad, I kind of lost it for a seconds. I yelled for someone to get me tissues and managed to pull myself together. Of course, by that time I had 4 boxes of tissues in my face, so I grabbed a couple just in case.

P.S. Don't mind me cracking up in most of the pictures. You will see in Part 2 that I'm pretty much laughing throughout the entire ceremony. Our JP was hysterical!!!

Pops and I walking down the aisle. And my sweet Groom seeing me for the first time.

Cute Sidenote Story: Big A and I had gone back and forth over whether or not to do a "First Look". I wanted it and he was adamant about the fact that he didn't. I finally just let it go and let him have his way. He told me later that he was so glad that we didn't see each other before because he was just so amazed by how beautiful I looked, that he was happy to have that moment right before we got married.

Cue the "Awwwwwwwwwwwwww"s. I know. He's great!

And now I will leave you with this picture. Some people ugly cry, apparently I ugly laugh. (And ugly!) Like I said, most of our pictures are like this. Awesome.

Now there's two reasons I am laughing in the picture above and in the one below. You can tell why in the pictures...take a gander.

Anyone willing to guess? C'mon. Just take a guess. What's wrong with that picture above? (Hint: the one with my dad and I laughing has the biggest clues).

There's no prize for guessing, I just couldn't believe that on my wedding day I would still do something so "ME". Even with all of those people around! Haha. Just goes to prove that you can't leave me alone for a second!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Weekend Recap

Oh hey friends!

Happy Monday! I'm sure all of you were cursing the alarm clock this morning as I was.

I decided to ignore it. With led me to wake up late. Couldn't find my keys. The dog stole my socks. The windshield on my car wasn't defrosted enough to drive right away.

Yep. That was my morning. Walked into work half an hour late to the one in a million days that my boss was here before 8:00 AM.

Kill me.

"Late today are we?"

Happy effing Monday.

That's all my complaints though. My weekend was pretty effing awesome.

And no I don't have any pictures to prove it. You'll just have to trust me.

Friday was a whole lot of nothing. Got in a good workout at the gym. Came home and made dinner. Then I ordered our thank you cards for the wedding AND our Christmas cards.

I know. I know. I'm amazing. Haha.

Saturday was spent running errands with Ma Dukes. Followed by going to the Turkey Shoot. Which is an event that the town Big A is from does every year that raises money for charity. Businesses donate money (and turkeys) and you put either 50 cents or $1 depending on the size of the turkey down on a square. Every square has a sponsor and a number. Then they spin the wheel and whatever number is lands on is the winner of that turkey.

They have away 70 turkeys. I did not win (one year I won TWO though, but then again, what the hell am I going to do with a turkey). But it was fun anyway. We went with a bunch of friends, so it was a good time. We went back to J$'s and Ry-Dizzle's house to play pool after.

It was a good day. I went WAY over my calories. But it was a good day.

Sunday, I woke up feeling guilty and not hungover so I hit the gym before I could talk myself out of it. I kicked some ass and then headed to the grocery store. Unfortunately forgetting to put deodorant on in the morning (before I left the house because I ran out so quick after getting up) and didn't have any in my car. I doused myself in perfume, but would like to apologize to the other shoppers for my smell.

And my appearance. I probably could have washed my make up off from the night before first, but I didn't think of it. And I probably could have grabbed a sweatshirt that Mr. Fresh apparently WASN'T using to catch all of his shedded fur. I promise I am not a hooker. I have a nice home and I do shower often.

After that I made Big A and I some lunch and we headed out to the football game at our friends' house. During the 4th quarter, the girls all went out on the four wheelers in the woods which was a blast. I've only been on one once or twice before, so it was fun. A little nervous, but fun. Haha.

Big A and I went home after the game so I could change out of my soaking wet shoes and jeans from the huge ass puddle we went through. Note to self: wear boots and lift up your feet when going through huge ass puddles.

We live and we learn.

I prepped some breakfast for today. Elle Noel found me last week and I checked out her blog back. Other than finding her freaking awesome (check out her weight loss story, girlie kicked some ass!) she had a recipe posted for these Breakfast cups. I've been looking for a yummy, low cal, hot breakfast and this was just the ticket. Find the recipe here. Since I'm a weenie and don't like spinach or mushrooms, I just did the turkey sausage with onions and a little bit of cheese.

A couple disclaimers:

I don't know what was up with my oven, but they weren't cooked in the 25 minutes. It sucks. I ended up bumping it up to 400 and cooking it longer until it looked right. They should pop up when they are almost done or done, not be flat with the top of the cup.

Also, unless you like to be the smelly person in the office, don't use onions. I don't think I would use them again. It is all I can smell. Good thing I only made a couple for this week.

Otherwise, delicious and it was only 124 calories for two of them. Holler.

And that's all for today.

I started tomorrow's recap of the ceremony, so hopefully I remember to finish it so I can post it tomorrow!

Have a great day lovers! I hope Monday is treating you well.

And only 3 days left until we get to shovel our faces full of food.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Friday's Letters

Another Friday's Letters... made possible by Ashley over at Adventures of Newlyweds!
(P.S. Ashley's husband was offered a kick ass job last week, answering their prayers. Head over and tell this fabulous girl Congrats!)

Dear Hubby, sometimes I want to strangle you. That's just a fact. But most of the time, I can't believe that I found such an amazing, funny, caring, sweet sweet man. Sometimes I wish that people who hear all of the amazing things that you say to me. But I know that that's just a special soft side just for me. (Hope this doesn't ruin your street cred too much! Haha)

Dear Jamn 94.5, I don't know what was up with you, but the fact that you were just pure static this morning ruined my drive into work. I listened to a full 10 minutes of crap before I finally switched to another station. Where I was forced to listen to shitty music. Get it together.

Dear Wedding Guests, I have attempted to order thank you notes about a million times. But, Shutterfly keeps pissing me off. I refuse to settle for anything less than what I had y heart set on, so please be patient. Although, I do have a year. But I promise not to take the whole year.

Dear Thanksgiving, thank you for giving my an excuse to stuff food in my face all day. And...umm...see my family too!

Dear Gym, I'm back baby. And I'm going to make you my bitch. Until I can save up for a treadmill. Then it is sayonara suckah!

Dear Winter, I'm not a fan of you. I hate the cold. I'm much more of a Summer person. Now... here's the deal. Hubby wants snow, so you're going to give him snow. Starting in January, you are going to give us some big storms. Nothing crazy. No loss of power or damage. Just some money makers. And then... you are going to let it melt a little before the next storm (which will be within a week) so that we don't have those snow bank problems like we did two years ago. Deal? Deal.

Dear ADD, I don't know what is wrong with you today, but OMG. You have looked up sewer maps, boot sales, Black Friday Deals, etc. All since starting this post. If you wonder why it takes you 6 hours to do ANYTHING, then I think we have found our reason.

Dear Justin Beiber, I have yet to catch your fever. Sorry dude. Let's be honest about what this really is. You tricked me into liking a couple songs under the pretense that you were Justin Timberlake. I choose to continue listening to said songs because I pretend that you are Justin Timberlake. I just didn't want you to think that this is something it isn't. It's not you it's me....Oh wait, I got that wrong. It's YOU not me.

Dear Justin Timberlake, why don't you come out with a few songs so I can stop listening to that weird haired freak listed above. Thanks!

Dear New Followers, HEY!!! So glad that you're here and so glad that most of you introduced yourselves. I love hearing from new people. I'm also considering doing a 100 follower giveaway just to say thanks to all of the people that listen to me bitch and whine all day. I'm getting close. Thoughts?

Dear Self, I know that there is a lot of stuff that you want to buy. And I know that you can't pass up a good deal (It's genetics, my grandmother will buy ANYTHING if it is onsale. No joke) BUT, you can't be spending this money right now. You have been bitten by the bug. Remember this and plan accordingly for next year.

That's all for today lovers because I started this post over an hour ago and I apparently can't seem to focus on it. Soooo... I'm all done. I hope all of you Bitches have an absolutely fabulous weekend and I will catch ya'll next week. I need to work on some more wedding posts since I already posted the ones I have written so far. Whoops! I was so far ahead and now back to slackerville.

Head on over to Ashley's blog and link up!


Thursday, November 15, 2012

Thursday Tidbits

Happy Thursday Folks!

Can anyone else believe that Thanksgiving is only a week away?


I've said it before, and I will say it again... this year is going by WAY to fast. I mean... wasn't it just yesterday that I was so excited because we entered the year we were getting married. And now we have been married for over two months.


I walked into work this morning, hating life as usual. Not because I don't like my job, just because well... I don't feel like working anymore. I think I am much more suited to be a House Wife where I can stay at home and clean the house, make fabulous dinners, work out so much that I get Trophy Wife status, and flirt with the pool boy. (Note to self: Get a pool boy. Preferably one that looks like Channing Tatum, Gavin Rossdale, Ryan Reynolds, etc.)

But, alas, I have to work. BOOOOO!

We had no power when I got here. It was ridiculous. The entire place was pitch black and they told me "Don't worry the phones and computers still work".

Umm... I'm not working an 8 hour day in the dark.

Much to my happiness, my computer did NOT work, so I was counting down the minutes until I could justify saying "Eff this" and the freaking power comes back on.


Not a fan of that.

In other news, I think I am going to be a crazy Black Friday person this year. My first ever.

There are some crazy good deals going on and Big A and I need some big ticket stuff. I've come to the conclusion that I absolutely despise paying full price for ANYTHING and if it means waking up at 4:00 AM to save $700 then so be it. I will enjoy my nice things from my expensive taste and not pay the price tag.


Anyone have any tips or tricks? Should I bring some brass knuckles, mace, and elbow pads so I don't hurt myself knocking old Bitties out of my way?

I imagine it kind of like a war zone. Is that accurate?

Although, I kind of want to see if I can just order the shit online. I'd rather be home in my PJs and I can just throw myself around the living room a bit so that I can get the actual FEEL of it. It will be like I was really there!

Anyway, I hope ya'll are having a fabulous Thursday and I just KNOW that you can all taste that victory wine that you earn from making it through a whole week.

Except for me. I told my weight loss group that I would lose a pound this week and I haven't hit the gym once due to back problems. And I may or may not have stuffed my face like it was my last meal last night. Whoops!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Wedded Bliss Wednesdays: Our Men as DADS

I'm linking up with Allie and Kay again for another Wedded Bliss Wednesday. (And look who actually remembered to hit publish on their post this week! Holler!)
1. What is/will be your husband's best trait as a father?
Let's start this whole things off by saying that we do not have kids yet. Don't think I have been hiding them from you. I promise, they do not exist. Now that we got that out of the way.

I think that my husband's fierce drive to take care of us will be his best trait as a father. I mean, he will have a million amazing traits, but I think that our kids will always know that their father is there for them. Working hard, every single day to make sure that we are safe. That we have a roof over our heads, food on the table, and clothes on our back.
2. What is/will be your husband's favorite thing to do with the kids?

He wants to teach them out to work on cars. It is no secret that Big A is a little obsessed with cars. Forget the fact that he is a mechanic, but he also owns two trucks and a 1969 Chevelle that he restored himself. He's ridiculously smart when it comes to cars (and picking wives heh). Girl or boy, he wants them out there handing him wrenches, helping him sand, etc. Our kids will always know how to change a tire, change their oil, drive a standard, etc. They won't be no fools.

3. How does/will your husband help out with the kids?

We don't have kids yet, but I don't know. I picture him being a very hands on Dad. He tells me stories about excited he used to get when his father walked through the door and I know that he wants that feeling too. I guess we will have to see how it goes whenever we have them

4. What do you hope your children learn from their dad?

I hope that they learn everything from him. I think that he is just such an amazing person, that if they take after him just a little bit then they are going to be cool ass kids. I want then to learn his work ethic, that you want to EARN your money. I want them to learn that hard work and dedication get you everywhere that you want to go. I hope that they learn his sense of humor. To just laugh at those little things that get you and let them roll off your back. I want them to learn his fierce protectiveness of his family. That he would do anything to make sure that they are safe and happy. And if they are boys, I want them to learn how to be a man from him. If they are girls, I want them to learn how a man is supposed to treat a woman by watching how he treats me. I hope that they learn how to stand up for themselves when someone is trying to put them down.

I've known him as a boyfriend, a fiance, and now a husband. I can't WAIT to know Big A as a father as well. I know he is going to be amazing. And our kids are going to be so freakin' lucky to have him for a father.

So What! Wednesday

First things first...

I am SOOOOO happy to announce that the winner of the Tiny Prints Giveaway is...... MEGAN!!!
Which makes me super happy because Megan and I have been longtime blog friends since we were planning our weddings at around the same time! Congrats Megan!

Now... onto business...

Time for another So What! Wednesday with Mrs. Shannon Dew!

This week I am saying So What! if...

* I can't wait for Turkey Day where I can day drink and stuff my face and not feel ashamed by it! Oh yeah... and seeing family will be cool too! :)

* I am currently looking at buying personalized stockings as we speak. I know it is early, but I am SO excited to decorate for Christmas this year!!! (I know Mom, not until after December 1st!)

* I'm going to pull a shameless plug and tell all of you to go over and check out my Mama's blog, Treasure or Toss! She writes about the good stuff! The stuff that makes you think. Unlike me who writes about how much I have the general public and how I can chug a bottle of wine like it's my job! Now, go say hi!!!

* I was slightly impressed with myself that I was seriously bummed that I thought I wasn't going to be able to hit the gym for awhile because of my back issues. Thankfully, my FIL is a PT and my doctor is a quack (Good thing it isn't the other way around!) so I should be able to get back into it tomorrow! Holler!

* If every time I have a treadmill question, I immediately e-mail Shannon. She's the only person I know who religiously uses the treadmill. So I have decided that she is my own personal treadmill guru! Hope you don't mind! Haha.

* After seeing this post by Pink Lou Lou, I immediately went home and asked Big A if we could make an entire bedroom into a walk-in closet for me when we finally buy a house. And he didn't immediately say no. But then again... he likes to placate me in hypothetical situations, and then be realistic when the situation actually happens. Balls.

* I entered a giveaway today and I have never wanted to win something so bad in my entire life (OK, maybe the Disney trip contest I entered...). And no I am not telling you what it is because I want it all to myself. If I could find some way to hack into rafflecopter and rig it so I would win, I would. I have no shame in admitting it!
* After looking at stockings I have realized that I suck at making decisions... I'm in love with both of these...

 ...and I know that there are probably a billion more that I would like as well.

* When I am looking into buying a new appliance the first thing I notice is if it is a pretty color. White, black, stainless steel??? Pshh... who cares if the thing actually works, did you see that pretty purple color it comes in???

Alright lovers. That's all for today. Which is actually a bold-faced lie because it is also Wedded Bliss Wednesday, so I will be back. Unless I forget to post it again...whoops.

Anyway... head on over to Shannon's blog and link up.

Also... thanks to everyone who gave me suggestions on photo editing sites! Can't wait to try them. Today's question... anyone know of a blog designer who is relatively cheap? I'm looking for a new layout with buttons for Facebook, Twitter, Instagram... ya know the typical shit, without having to pay $100. I would also be interested in bartering... maybe I can do something you need? We switch? Yes yes? Yes yes.


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Wedding Recap: The Wedding Party

First things first. I'm a idiot and never published my Wedded Bliss Wednesday post from last week. Go me! So when I found it this morning, I had to post. So lucky you guys get TWO posts today. You can see it here.

Back in June (of 2011), I wrote this post about choosing my Bridesmaids.

They say that you should wait as long as you can before you choose your girls. That friendships change, people move, things fall apart. Like most things, I thought I was immune to all of that BS.

I wasn't. But in the end, it didn't matter. I ended up with 5 of the absolute most amazing girls. They were awesome. Seriously, I don't know how they pulled everything off so well, because honestly I am one picky bitch.

But everything was perfect.

And come time for the wedding, I couldn't wait to see how all of their dresses came together. If you have been around for awhile, you know that we went shopping twice. Once with Jackums and Mrs. C in October 2011 because they were pregnant and would be definitely showing by the time the rest of the girls went. You can read the Prego Mego Dress Search here. Then the rest of the girls went in January 2012. You can read that here.

So, I hadn't gotten a chance to see all the dresses together. All I knew was that they were all floor length and the same color (The only stipulation I gave them. They picked whatever dress they wanted).

Alright, I'll stop yapping. You're not here to listen to me talk. You want the goods.

All of us girls together. OMG, I LOVE the way the dresses look together.

Me with each Bridesmaid. From left to right.
Me and Nat (SIL), Jackums and I, and then Mrs. C and I

Pickles and I, & then my MOH J$ and I.
FYI if anyone knows how to edit the pictures so they don't crop people's faces off in Picasa when doing a collage... please tell me HOW!!!

Now onto the boys. Not as pretty, but still pretty good looking. (That last one if my favorite)

All the boys. From left to right. J, Pags, Ry-Dizzle, D, and Cull (my brosiff)

And because I got accessories pictures... Big A getting his boutonniere put on. So happy that he actually looks happy and not like he wants to run haha... And then Big A's watch. His grandfather gave him that watch and it is very special to him. We made sure to have it all cleaned up and a new strap put on so that he could wear it the day of the wedding.

I'm so happy that I went with the approach that I did when we were picking the bridesmaid dresses. I know a lot of people say that it is too distracting to have different dresses, but I disagree. I looked at a lot of pictures and as long as they were the same color and length, it wasn't something that stuck out like a sore thumb. Ya know. The girls got to pick dresses that they wanted and they were comfortable and they got to pay what they wanted. I loved the way it turned out.

I've been a bridesmaid a few times before and there is NOTHING worse than wearing a dress that you don't like. You just feel uncomfortable all day and it shows in the pictures. I'm just lucky that they all actually liked the color and all looked GREAT in red!

That's all for today folks! Next week... Ceremony!

Wedded Bliss Wednesdays: Childhood Expectations

Whoops, just found out that this never posted. I'm posting this and then I will post the wedding update I have for today!
I'm linking up with Allie and Kay for another Wedded Bliss Wednesday!

I didn't have time to look back in old journals and such seeing as how I JUST remembered that it was Wedded Bliss Wednesday when I got to work this morning and say Allie and Kay's post and said , "SHIT! wasn't I supposed to do something for that?" Whoops!

Eh, here goes nothing!

1. When you were a child what did you imagine YOUR Prince Charming to be like?

I don't think I honestly ever imagined my "Prince Charming" as a child. I think I just thought more about the bigger picture. The family, the house, etc. I didn't really think of what I wanted. I think I just wanted someone who was going to keep me safe, protect me. Ya know.

2. Does you husband match your prediction as a child?

Yep. To a T. Big A is my biggest protector. Sometimes I get so frustrated with him when I am talking about something that is bothering me and he goes off on a tangent and gets all upset and tries to tell me what to do. But then I remember that he is only doing it because he loves me and doesn't want to see me hurting. He has my back no matter what. Even with little things. We will be driving in the car and he will have to stop short, and his arm reflexively goes across my chest to hold me back. It's cute. He's like my own personal body guard. I know that no matter where I am or what I am doing that as long as he is by my side that he won't let anything happen to me. And if we aren't together, he's just a phone call away and he will be right there to handle things. Sometimes it makes me feel invincible. Not in a naive way, but in a "as long as I have him everything will be OK" kind of way.

3. What about when you were a teenager and knew it all about love, does you relationship match that scenario you had during those rebel years?

OMG! NOOOOOOO! I'm just going to be honest here. I was a pretty effed up teenager. I was going through a lot and kind of used relationships to work it all out. I've really only had 3 REAL boyfriends. The first was that whole "I think I'm in love and will be with this person for the rest of my life, oh wait you're really an asshole, forget this...". The second basically MADE what my relationship with Big A is. I was determined to do it different this time. And I did. And honestly, I think that is the reason that Big A and I are married today. If I was still the jaded, effed up, selfish person that I was, then Big A probably would have thrown up the deuces and walked away from me, right quick.

Our relationship is a lot more of a team mentality, which is something I never would have figured out as a teenager. I know that no matter what, Big A and I are in this together. Ya know. We will fight. We will disagree. We will  have hard times. Things are going to SUCK sometimes. But at the end of the day, this relationship is important to us, and we are important to each other. Fights aren't this big whole dramatic 'he's going to leave me" thing anymore, they are a way for us to continue learning from and about each other.

4. What love movie would you best match your relationship to? Why?

I wouldn't. Honestly. I don't know anyone else, fictional or non-fictional, who reminds me of us. I know couples that I WISH that we could be like. One surprising one, would be Dan and Roseanne Connor from Roseanne. I know they are kind of trashy and ridiculous, but they absolutely LOVE each other. And they are in it TOGETHER! Even with their kids, it's like them against the world. It's cute. I hope that when we have been married for that long and have kids that we still are best friends.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Show and Tell Monday Link-up: Cold Weather Activities

I'm linking up with Beck over at From Mrs to Mama for another Show and Tell  Monday!
1. Tell us what you like to do when it's cold outside.

Honestly, when it is cold outside, I don't want to do ANYTHING. I don't want to leave my house. I want to be comfy and warm. My favorite thing is to just snuggle underneath the blanket, drink some hot chocolate, and watch TV. That's all I want! My bones get all achy in the cold anyway, so it is better for me to just stay inside!

2. Tell us some of your favorite "winter" recipes.

Hmm... favorite winter recipes...I've been trying to be good about food, so unfortunately my recipes aren't super fun. But I make a mean turkey chili and turkey meatloaf. Seriously, delicious. Also, I make these absolutely AMAZING Bacon Tomato bites. They are a pain in the ass to make, but the most delicious! It's bacon, tomato, cheese, etc. all baked into some dough. Ridiculous. If you want any of the recipes, then email me ( I've been thinking of starting a recipe sharing link-up...any takers? (Other than Brittany of course!)

3. Show a picture of something that makes you think of the cold.

When I think of cold weather. I think of the holidays. I think of snow storms. Decorating. All of the magic of the season. Until January 2nd and then everything looks like shit. The snow is brown. It is too cold out. And why the hell haven't these people taken down their Christmas lights yet???

4. Tell us /show us some of your favorite accessories/outfits for the winter
  Alright lovers, here's what I gots. I'm not a complicated person. I need a scarf. I live in them in the winter because I am always cold. A pair of boots that I can tuck my jeans into because there is nothing that makes me want to punch kittens more than when the bottom of my pants are wet, which then turn into wet socks, which is the worst of the worst. (Please note that I would NEVER hurt a kitten, or any animal. It was an example of how much I hate it. Please don't start sending me hate mail & animal cruelty pamphlets). A blanket, because I never leave my house and never turn up the heat. And these gloves are my fave! They give you the warmness of gloves, but with the finger access of mittens when you need it!

5. Tell us if you had the option of snow or no snow, what would you pick

I would have to say snow. Big A plows so when we have snow it means some money. And he's never happier than when he knows he is out working hard and making money. Which doesn't mean he's a money grubber... it just means that he just likes to have money to make sure that we can pay our bills, we can do fun stuff, and we have a nice little nest egg just in case we have an emergency.

And that's all for today. OMG! That post took me FOREVER to write. I was having Picasa problems. It wasn't updating my pictures so I couldn't find them for the collages. Anyone have any clue about how to fix that? Or a better program to work with?

Lastly, don't forget to enter my Tiny Prints Giveaway here. Giveaway ends Tuesday, Winner will be announced on Wednesday!

Hope everyone had a great weekend! More wedding recaps tomorrow!!!

Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday's Letters


TGIF! Agreed?

I'm linking up with Ashley for Friday's Letters. My favorite part of the week!

I want to send a little shout-out to one of my most FABULOUS friends.

This little SeƱorita is turning the Dirty Thirty today and I just want to wish her an absolutely FABULOUS day! Smooches! (Don't hate me for this picture...)

Alright... now that that's over and done with (You can't have the whole blog post N, even though I love you! Smooch!)

Dear Husband, I know it has been a long couple weeks, but hang in there baby! Things will calm down soon enough (like...umm...January...) and live will be AMAZING. I promise!

Dear Mr. Fresh, some day I dream of being that girl at work who ISN'T covered in dog hair. Unfortunately, that would probably require shaving you bald. You're lucky that I love your long luscious locks that crimp in the rain... with your fur!

Dear Person at Work Who Has Been Stealing My Butter, first of all, I hope that you have good butter etiquette, because I am pretty grossed out right now about the fact that you were using my food. Second, WTF! My name is written on there like 12 times. Thirdly, the tub of butter is like $2 at Stop & Shop. Tell ya what... confess and I will buy YOU your own tub. Blech. What do I have to do? Write a psycho note like Ross did on Friends... on second thought... didn't he get put on sabbatical? Do you get paid for that? Hmm...

Dear Bathroom Scale, why are you fucking with me? Seriously? We BOTH know that I have kicked some major ass. And I can FEEL it... why can't you just SHOW it?!?! I promise that when I lose all the weight I won't neglect you! I'll still weigh myself obsessively. C'mon... just give me a little somethin' somethin'!

Dear Tiny Prints, why do you have so many amazing options? I spent two HOURS last night trying to decide on a Christmas card! And I can't! Maybe I will just get a few of each...hmm...that's not a bad idea!

Dear Uggs, I tried to buy knock offs of you, but it just wasn't the same. I tried to love them, but they just didn't compare! Don't worry my Sweet... we will be back together again soon! I promise!

Dear Self, you're coming up with some bomb ass ideas lately. I'm proud of you for thinking outside the box and getting yourself out there to make more of yourself. However...the ideas are one thing, actually DOING it is another. Get off your ass and DO something. Or I will punch you in the face! I promise it will hurt me more than it hurts you! :)

Dear Handy Men at Work, please fix the heat soon. I don't really enjoy wearing my coat all day long and STILL being cold. Plus if I have to hear one more person obsess over the fact that it is cold or what the temperature on the thermostat says NOW (as compared to 3 1/2 minutes ago) I might just throw myself out a window.

Dear Shopping Habit, I know that you are still in there. I can feel you. I also know that I just got rid of a bunch of clothes and there aren't a lot of options right now. Trust me, I fully understand. However, I can not, I REPEAT, CAN NOT give in to you right now. So lock it up! I promise you, that as soon as I can, we will do some damage. Just hang tight pretty lady!

Dear SIL, looking forward to seeing you this weekend to celebrate your day of BIRTH (P.S. I am now taking applications for friends who were NOT born in October or November, this shit is out of control) and I really, really, REALLY want to meet your new main squeeze! Don't hold out on me now.

Dear Readers, did you enter my Tiny Prints giveaway yet? It ends Tuesday. C'mon! We ALL send holiday cards...this would give you $50 towards yours! Enter here! Enter now!!!

That's all for today folks! Counting down the hours until I am out of this place and can fully enjoy the fabulous weekend ahead! Go enter my giveaway and have a effing FANTASTIC weekend!

Come back next week for more shenanigans and more wedding recaps!

Tiny Prints Giveaway Winner will be announced on Wednesday, November 14th.