Thursday, May 31, 2012

Baby Fever?

First of all... I'd like to say Happy 100 Days until the Wedding Everyone!

Get ready! Haha!

OK, now that I have that out of my system... Let's talk babies.

Yeah. You heard me right.

Babies.

I thought that after all of the talk of when we would get engaged, we would at least have some time before we got the baby questions. I mean, wouldn't that make sense?

Nope.

We get the questions. Often. It has a lot to do with the fact that some of our friends already HAVE kids, some of them are HAVING kids, while others are PLANNING on having them soon.

We have reached that point in our lives. I get it.

But, sometimes I still feel 12 and have to wrap my head around the fact that I am getting married (in 100 days!!!) so the thought of me as a mother kind of freaks me out.

Actually... let me re-phrase that... the thought of me pregnant freaks me out. Hardcore. 

Wanna have the stork drop a baby off at my doorstep? Let's do the damn thing NOW then. 

And since my request for a surrogate and adoption have been shut down... I guess one day I am just going to have to suck it up and do it. BUT... today isn't that day.

This whole thing is sparked by a conversation that I had with N last week. We were drinking some adult beverages and decided that we HAD to watch some episodes of the show Dinosaurs.

Remember this show?
It was on TGIF in the 90's. I LOVED it! (Remember TGIF?)

Anyway...in the first episode Earl comes home from work one day to find that Francine has a surprise for him. They were having another baby. 

See?

And I thought to myself... hmm... now THAT would be the life. Obviously, Francine knew nothing of what was going on. She just laid an egg one day. No bigs. And then just went about her day making sure that it was warm and taken care of.

No morning sickness. No doctor's visits. No changes to her body. And I bet you she had a glass of wine that night while watching over her little one to be.

Now that is totally up my alley. I'd do that in a heart beat.

But unfortunately, that's not an option. Humans don't lay eggs. Ug.

I mean, I know everyone talks about the miracle of life and how amazing it is. And you forget all about the pain afterward because it is so amazing. The crazy feeling of meeting your baby for the first time and knowing that it was growing inside you.

I know. I know.

But the truth is... I am PETRIFIED! Seriously. Scared shitless. It is scary enough being a Mother. Watching your heart walk around outside your body knowing that you can only protect it so much. But, the thought of ME keeping the baby safe, INSIDE me, is just WAY too scary. I feel like I will have to sit in a plastic bubble in the corner of a padded room for 9 months (which is bullshit by the way because it is 10 months, so I don't know why they lie to you).

Scary.

Not to mention the fact of what if I CAN'T have kids. What if there is something wrong with me. What if something is wrong with the baby. What if something happens to the baby. I have known people who have gone through miscarriages. Seriously, I don't know how they do it. They have so much STRENGTH and I just don't think I have it in me.

I'll repeat. SCARY!

And trust me, I know that I need to get over my issues. I do. And I know that I am not READY for a kid until I do that. I also know that I am still going to be scared when it happens because I will want to do everything that I can to keep my child safe.

But sometimes people don't get that. They hear that you are jumping for joy to pop out kids and all of a sudden there is something wrong with you. I know. I've done it too when people don't fit into my suspected timelines.

I told Big A that I'm not even entertaining the idea until after we are married and settled into a house. There isn't any point in doing anything living in a crappy one bedroom apartment with about 2 sq feet of free space. After that, when WE are READY we can sit down and have the talk. Until then... I'm focused on the wedding, our marriage, and our life together. There is plenty of time for babies.

I'm only 26! And even though Big A is pushing 30 and his biological clock is ticking just a BIT faster than mine, we still have plenty of time. It will happen when it happens IF it is supposed to happen.

End of story.

So, for now, the whole baby topic is on the back burner and that it TOTALLY cool with me.

And to leave off on a fun note (after I just freaked the eff out for a minute there) I found this while searching for Dinosaur pictures!

HILARIOUS!

(Sidenote: The whole Dinosaur interest was sparked by the fact that we have  woman working for us temporarily who reminds me of the Grandmother from this show. Seriously, I can't even look at her without laughing)

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

So What! Wednesday

Thank GOODNESS for So What! Wednesday!

It was difficult to get up this morning (why was it easier yesterday?) and I'm still in a half-asleep fog (and I drove to work?). I doubt I would have been able to come up with anything entertaining otherwise.

Thanks Shannon for saving my ass yet again!

This week I am saying So What! if...

* I enjoy the hour in the morning that I get to myself at work. I go in at 7:00 and no one else is here until 8:00. It is a magical time. I think I am becoming more anti-social by the minute.

* I sat down the other day and marked the calender to count down the days until the Wedding!!! I only marked until 100 days, but that's TOMORROW, so it wasn't that bad. EEK!

* Sometimes I get super bummed about this whole wedding planning process. With all of the stress, drama, and just general bullshit, it gets in the way of actually enjoying this process. For the most part (even though it is hard sometimes) I am just trying to say eff everything else and be excited! Just sucks sometimes that it seems like the entire world has to fall apart when it is supposed to be the happiest time in your life (so far!)

* The temp at work is STILL driving me bat shit crazy. I know she means wells, but dear LORD she makes me want to scream. 7 more days, I can do it.

* Sometimes I feel like a gigantic A-hole for hating on the temp. She is a very nice woman, I can't explain why she angers me so much. It might have something to do with the fact that she said "good girl" and patted me on the head, but... I dunno. I try to be nice. IT.JUST.DOESN'T.WORK.

* I spent 5 minutes straight staring at my tan lines in the mirror last night wondering what the hell I'm going to do about them (because that's a productive use of my time). I'm Irish so I burn like crazy. BUT, I get tan lines really easy. Which means although I haven't been out in the direct sun light, I have tan lines from my tank top. Tan lines + strapless wedding dress = ICK.

* Yesterday I was trying to decide on whether I should exercise or clean the house... and then decided to just sit on the couch and watch Veronica Mars. I'm still not used to this whole getting out early and having free time thing.

* I felt snobby for not even wanting to look at a house that Big A is interested in because the neighborhood is trashy. I mean the house is nice, and it is on a couple acres of land, but the surrounding houses are kind of beat down. Makes me wonder if they are just going to get worse and if anyone would ever bother buying our house should we choose to ever sell it.

* I tell people I am not packing my stuff up for the big office move because it will "take me two seconds" but the real reason is that I am boycotting the move. I have room. I have space. I sit with people I enjoy (minus temp lady) and I do NOT want to give all of that up to sit in a small cubicle near a psycho hose beast who has been making it her mission to make my life hell.

Welp. That about it for today. Apparently I had more to say than I thought.

Now, it's YOUR turn. Head on over to Shannon's blog and link-up!!!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Memorial Day Weekend Recap

I must say... I am deeply saddened by the fact that this weekend is already over. 

Seriously, quickest long weekend ever. So not fair. 

But... we did our best at packing in as much crap as possible. By last night I was thoroughly exhausted. The ultimate sign of a good weekend.

Here's what we did. 

Friday, I was a rebel. I split from work an entire 15 minutes early (woo hoo) and met up with Mama for coffee and shopping. A good time was had by all.

AND... I was super brave and bought these little gems:  

Normally, I don't wear shorts. EVER. BUT, I needed a new goal. And these babies are it!

Friday night, J&N came over for some burgers. They feed us like twice a week, so it was only fair. I may or may not have given them a choice about it! Haha.

Saturday, I went a got my hair did. It looked fabulous! I also booked all of my hair appointments from now until the wedding. Craziness that it is that close that I can book everything. Eek.

I have no pictures. I completely forgot and then I got thrown in a pool on Sunday before any pictures were taken. Bummer.

I went shopping with Mrs. C and then out with Big A and a friend in the Chevelle. Beautiful night for a ride.

Sunday, was Mr. Fresh's birthday. So we did what any normal dog parents would do. We fed him cake at midnight and sang him "Happy Birthday". He seemed to enjoy it.

When we woke up on Sunday, we got all put together and then took Mr. Fresh for a nice long walk. Complete with a little dip in the pond. He enjoyed splashing around. I did NOT enjoy the fact that he was practically dragging me in with him. No bueno.


After our walk, Big A and I got ourselves looking presentable and headed over to J$'s house for her Graduation part. Smarty pants just completed her MBA so we did what we do best... drink celebrate!

I have like three pictures and one video from Sunday. Two pictures are presentable. I guess that's what happens when you drink vodka. Whoops!

Jackums, Her hubby B-Dogg, and Baby M. LOVE them!

Aaaannd... casualties of being thrown in a pool.

Monday was left for recuperating. Big A and I went for a nice long ride in the Chevelle. Then we stopped by to see Jackums and her fam-damily. And then completed the night with our first trip of the season to Bradishes. Seriously, most delicious hamburgers, hot dogs, onion rings, etc. that you will EVER have! They are only open Memorial Day weekend through Labor Day weekend. Then I think they head down to Florida. But we count the days until we come back.

I successfully ate a whole bunch of crap this weekend and drank WAAAAY too many beers. BUT, that was the plan. Now, it is time to get back on the saddle. I'm hopefully joining the gym today (or tomorrow) and then my big butt needs to get into shape!

Hope you all had a safe and fun weekend!

Friday, May 25, 2012

Friday's Letters

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I couldn't resist.. I know... two posts...one day.

But it beats actually doing work right?

Dear Hot Pink Nail Polish, I'm kind of obsessed with you. I saw you on a girl in the cafeteria and I had to make you mine. If you were trying to make me jealous... it worked.

Dear Instagram, why didn't you tell me that I could take your pics and e-mail them to myself so I could have them on my blog? I thought everyone else was just special and I wasn't. Not cool.

Dear Mr. Fresh, thank you for being so handsome. It really makes it easier for me to still love you when you are not being the best Border Collie that you could be. Also, thanks for dealing with the 8 million names that I refer to you as.
Dear Long Weekend, get here fast. Seriously. 3 hours and 42 minutes left. After that, I'm going to make you my biatch.

Dear Bank Account, please replenish yourself. I am getting my hair done tomorrow and I do not want to feel guilty about it.

Dear Last 15 pounds, please disappear relatively quickly. I'll do the work, I promise. Just please don't bust my balls. (If you missed this morning's Foxy Friday post you can see it here. We have a couple of lovely ladies who have already linked up... so join us!)

Dear Housing Market, do my a favor and please stay "a buyer's market" for a little bit longer. Also, if you could throw a couple amazing houses with everything we want/need on the market... in the area that we want.. I would totally owe you one.

Dear Temp, please stop driving me nuts. Because seriously, at this point, I think you are doing this on purpose. I do not need to know what you are doing at every moment. I do not need to know every time you had a misfeed in the copy machine (trust me I hear it). And I DO NOT need you going against literally EVERYTHING I say. Please finish your responsibilities here before I snap. (And to think I woke up with morning vowing to be nicer to you)

Dear Perfect Strapless Bathing, Perfect Wedges for my Bridal Shower, and Perfect Bandeau for Bridal Shower Dress, please make yourselves exist. In my price range. Seriously. This shouldn't be this hard. I haven't even found anything that is OUT of my price range. You simply do not exist. Fix that. Thanks!

Oh, I could go on FOREVER. We all know that. Now, head on over to Ashley's blog and link up(Of course, that's AFTER you go and link-up for Foxy Friday, right?!)

Alright. Smooches! Have a great long weekend. I'll try to stop being lame and actually take some pictures this weekend. I'm sure you will enjoy that more than my rambling.  

Foxy Friday Link-up


Down at Fraggle Rock

Hello Lovers!
 
And welcome to the very FIRST Foxy Friday!
 
A weekly link-up devoted to us Foxy Ladies who want to look the same on the outside as we feel inside.
 
Ever look in a mirror and not like what you see? Ever decide every.single.Monday that THIS will be the day you change your ways.
 
I've been there. I've done that. But, I didn't change. I stayed the same. Ate the same. Drank the same. It didn't really work out well.
 
Then my Fiance Big A and I went to have our Engagement pictures done, and when I got them back, I kind of wanted to cry. I mean, I loved them. They came out AMAZING. But I wasn't happy with ME in them. And I couldn't bare the thought that I would look at my wedding pictures the same way.
 
I wanted to be healthy. I wanted to be happy. I wanted to start my marriage off on the right foot. Not dragging my insecurities with me.
 
So, in January I started doing Firm Friday. Check the first post here.
 
This is what I looked like:



WOOF!

But, I kept at it and held myself accountable. And now... this is what I look like:

       




Not too shabby if I do say so myself.

But...I'm only half way there. I feel good. I feel better. I feel happy, sexy, healthy, dare I say it... even foxy at times. But I know I could feel BETTER.

In a perfect world I would lose 15 more pounds (well... in a perfect world I would be 120 with big boobs, but I'll work with what I gots).

So here's the deal. Every Friday we link-up.

Take your pictures. Take your measurements. And then tell us how your week went. Did you rock it? Did you find an awesome new workout? Did you fall a bit short and need some encouragement? Tell us. And we will be there.

Like I said yesterday... there were plenty of times that I wanted to give-up. That I felt down and I thought I sucked monkey balls, but then I would get an awesome comment or e-mail, and seriously... it was like someone slapped me on the ass and said, "Get your head back in the game girl"...because the next week... I'd rock it.

So link-up. Let's start with our "Before" pics. Measurements. What you want to accomplish. How you feel. Why you want to do this. Just tell us about YOU.

Then take the weekend to have a little fun (because we all know I will be drinking my calories this weekend) and get ready to hit this next week.

We got this. And we are going to make this whole "Get Foxy" thing our biatch.

Smooches!


Thursday, May 24, 2012

And the Link-Up Winner is...

All morning I've been attempting to come up with a cool button for tomorrow's link-up.

But, if I have learned two things in my google search, they are:

1) Don't google foxy lady at work. Bad news bears. IT should be visiting me shortly.

and...

2) Megan Fox looked 8 million times better before her scary plastic surgery.

See?


Soo... I'm going to work on it later.

But, I'm sure you can tell by now that Foxy Friday won!


It wasn't a huge turn out, but it was more than just me who voted, so I'm happy about that.

Thanks to Leah who came up with the name!

So... tomorrow! Get ready girls!

We are going to be starting out with our stats: weight, measurements, pics. I know, I know... it's scary throwing all of that info out there, but I've done it and so can you.

Don't believe me? Remember this hideous post?

Yeap... I went there.

The whole point of this little link-up is support. I had been trying to lose weight forEVER, but I couldn't stick to it. I kept making excuse after excuse and FINALLY when I realized that I was going to have to look at my wedding pictures forever and KNEW that I would be unhappy with them... something in me changed.

Thankfully, right around that time, Kristen started her Firm Fridays and while she doesn't need to lose a pound, it really helped me hold myself accountable.

15 pounds later. I feel like a new person. I looked back at our pictures from our Engagement party and I told Big A that I felt like I was wearing a fat suit. Not exactly something I'm proud of. I don't like having those pictures of me out there.

BUT, if I keep at it, some day I will be happy with my body and maybe those pictures won't bother me as much anymore.

The support really helped me. The e-mails and comments that came flooding in when I had a great week and lost a good amount. And more importantly the support that came in when I wasn't doing so well and kind of got off track.

So... I'm hoping that this can help me get back on track and lose those last 15 pounds... and maybe, just MAYBE I can help someone else get on track. Because we all know, if you aren't happy with yourself, you generally aren't happy.

So take those pics, take those measurements, and step on that dreaded scale and I will see you back here tomorrow for our FIRST link-up!

We will all get "foxy" together and we will make this whole weight loss / bikini body mission our biatch!

Smooches!



Wednesday, May 23, 2012

So What! Wednesday

I <3 So What! Wednesday!

This week I am saying So What! if...

* I am on the hunt for ANOTHER dentist. I've come to the conclusion that mine is a giant creep. I'm thinking when you have dentist issues anyway, and then you have this guy who makes your skin crawl, it probably isn't conducive to my positive mental health (Haha N! Conducive!!!)

* My "Glorious To Do List" on my desk needed to be updated 2 weeks ago and I can't be bothered.

* The only reason I am upset about us moving to our new office is because now I will have to sit near a bunch of people instead of just a couple (There'susually me and one other woman in our section. Our bosses are constantly travelling so they aren't here often. It's bliss!) I'm well aware that I am anti-social.

* I went home yesterday and tried on my ring... again. (Missed the post? I accidentally posted it early... so whatevs... see it HERE) And then when Big A got home I immediately asked him if he wanted to watch me try on my ring. Haha. Obsessed.

* N, J$, and I put together the Bachelorette Party invite last night (as in... they wrote it and I drank wine and then approved it) and then were talking about plans. I told them they were nuts and and it was like 6 years away. Chill people. They nicely informed me that it isn't. It's really only a couple months away. Eek!

* I giggle every time I accidentally type "eel" instead of "eek"... which is often. Hehe

* I couldn't tell you the natural color of my hair if you put a gun to my head. I've had it dark brown forever (with the occasional highlights) and now it has been growing out (because I'm cheap) and it almost looks dirty blonde in the sun. What? I'm a blonde?

* I started the 300 ab workout and only made it 2 days. I could barely move!!! I know... I know... I'm hoping to get back into it. Maybe start every other day until I get more used to it. Seriously. It was painful. I think I figured out why I don't have the washboard stomach that I desire...oh wait! That's because I have no muscle there! Ug.

* I'm digging my new early work schedule. I went from working 8:00-4:30 to 7:00 - 3:30. I get a nice hour in the morning to myself and I have a relatively free afternoon. It's the bees knees.

* I'm annoyed at whoever is printing things to my printer. All the time we have this "ghost" who prints a bunch of shit to our printer...and then never shows up. A) Thanks for wasting our paper. B)Thanks for tying up our printer for half an hour so we can't use it. And C) Thanks for leaving your shit so I get to clean it up. Awesome.

That's all for today folks! Now head on over to the FABULOUS Shannon's blog and link-up. Also, don't forget to vote for the new Friday Fitness link-up name. Looks like Foxy Friday is winning... but there's only 4 votes so...it's not really hard to win!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Bling Bling Baby!

I picked up me wedding ring.

Wowza.

Nothing make it more real than an expensive piece of jewelry on your hand.

Remember when I struggled to find "The Right Ring"?

Well... we went back a few weeks later and I found it.

The ONE!

Not, not Big A! He was the easy part! There's never been a doubt in my mind about him.

Committing to a ring for the rest of my life? Now THAT was hard!

Then I waited...patiently...for my ring to come in. And when he called and said it was ready? I was there within 24 hours.

Which was the quickest time I could get to the bank and go over there.

Truth be told. I was going to wait until after work, but I had a dentist appointment and I was afraid I would get stuck late and they would be closed before I got out.

So, I waited as long as I could and left work at around 11 to go get it.

I've never had self-control. Or patience. Just ask my parents! :)

Soo... without further ado...


All by it's lonesome and STILL gorgeous!

A match made in heaven.

I had DREAMS about this ring. Seriously.

That's how effing psycho I am!

I had a dream (the night we picked it out) that I was on this crazy roller coaster. And everyone was going nuts because there was something wrong with it and we were flying all over the place. And then there I am. Sitting quietly and calmly, with my hand in front of my face, staring at my ring, with a shit eating grin on my face.

I told Big A about this dream. And he chuckled a little, but wasn't surprised. At least he knows what he is getting himself into.

Psycho.

With every little big, I get more excited. It makes it more REAL. Ya know.

Or maybe it is just the pretty jewelry.

I'll have to tell Big A that it cheers me up to get pretties. Haha.

We will see if THAT works.

Alright lovers! That's all I have for today. I'm going to go drool over my rings and try to be a valued member of society. Although, we all know that it is only a matter of time before I get wedding brain.

Want a Little Cheese with that Whine?

Sometimes I get frustrated. (Sometimes?)

Sometimes it seems like I am getting kicked in the teeth no matter which way I turn.

This year has been a hard one.

Really hard.

We lost a close friend right before Christmas last year, and I feel like that just set the tone for the entire year of 2012. Big A and I both tried so hard to enjoy ourselves over the holidays, but it just wasn't in us.

Then on New Year's Eve we found out that they were putting my grandfather into hospice care.

That strong, unbelievable man made it all the way to February 8th. I am still in awe of him. How strong he was through everything, even though his body was failing him.

Nothing else seems to compare much to those two events.

But the hits kept coming.

I feel like every time I get something back to normal, there's something else to deal with.

Job troubles, friend troubles, money troubles, wedding troubles.

You name it? We got it.

There are some very heavy things that are weighing on my heart and unfortunately there isn't a thing I can do about them. I feel stuck. Like I'm waiting for someone else to make a move and I just can't go anywhere until then.

And as if that isn't enough, and I'm not thoroughly stressed out with everything else... the hits keep coming.

Yesterday, for example. I found out that as a result of my switching supervisors (and no, not a promotion or a raise... my boss switched parts of the company and I didn't go with him this time, which is a WHOLE other story of WTF?!) they are switching me from bi-weekly pay to weekly.

Cool right?

Oh wait...the schedules are different. So I get to miss a paycheck! Anyone out there think that they could miss a paycheck and still pay all of their bills? Because if you can, I want you to adopt me and tell me your secrets, because I just can't do it.

And this takes place 3 weeks before the wedding. Seriously? RIGHT before the wedding. Because I will have so much expendable income then. Oof!

There was some other BS yesterday, but I just won't get into that.

I went to the gym with N to blow off some steam. And it worked. Until I went home and proceeded to trip down my stairs taking the dog out, almost smashing my face open. Why do you ask? Because our back stairs are falling apart. And despite the fact that we have told our landlord, as usual he can't be bothered.

So, we are just taking the planks off one by one and they come apart, and moving them to a space that we are less likely to step on them, thus getting a rusty nail shoved into our foots.

Although, compared to some things right now... that sounds like a blast.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I am in a funk. I get some caught between wanting to fight every battle that is brought to me and then just keeping my mouth shut constantly because I don't want to rock the boat. (Although sometimes it is because I don't trust myself to open it. You know what they say, "If you don't have anything nice to say...")

But, now I'm stuck miserable because I kept my mouth shut for so long that now it would be ridiculous for me to bring anything up.

I mean seriously, if we weren't getting married this year, then this year would completely blow. I would just call it a wrap and hunker down in the basement until New Years. But I'm hoping... that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

That things will be OK. That I can pull myself out of this melo-dramatic bullshit and ENJOY myself.

I just need a break. A miracle. Something. Something to get me out of this funk.

I went back to the gym yesterday, which DEFINITELY helped, but we can thank my rotting back staircase and my asshat of a landlord for ruining that one. Boooo!

Alright... I just needed to get all of that out. I just needed to say that this sucks. I'm looking forward to Summer. Because although I'm sure there will be more drama and bullshit, at least the weather will be nice and I am now out of work at 3:30 every afternoon. Woo!

And I try to remember that I get to marry my best friend in a couple months. It just SUCKS that I know I am going to remember this time as being bullshit, rather than the happiest time in my life leading up to my wedding to the main of my dreams.

Soo.... I'm going to try to pick my ass up off the ground and just say "eff it". I mean, if I can't change any of this nonsense then why focus on it? It is what is is. Now move on. Right?

I'm going to try.

But first... I go to the dentist. Because apparently, that's what I need. A trip to the dentist where I can scream and cry like a little girl.

I'm thinking I might already break my "no booze during the week" rule and have a nice glass of wine tonight. Because anyone who has to have their teeth/mouth picked at by a very nice, but large chested woman (she rests them on my forehead practically... it's...uncomfortable to say the least) should be able to drink. A lot.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Weekend Recap

This weekend was a good one, if I do say so myself.

Sometimes I am left feeling robbed of my weekend. It feels too short. It was too stressful. I spent it doing things that I really would rather NOT do.

But this weekend... I approve.

Friday we hung out with J & N, as per usual. N and I are obsessed with the show Grimm, so we try to get the boys together and then send them off somewhere else so that we can drink wine and watch it in peace. Genius.

Saturday, I hung out with Pickles for most of the day. Running a couple boring errands. But then I met up with my girls and we put together the WEDDING INVITATIONS!!! I have to say, after a couple minor heart attacks, but relatively low mistakes, they are done and I can NOT wait to send them out and have them out of my house! They go out the beginning of June so I will write a post about them then. I'm in love with them. They came out perfect.

Sunday, Big A and I had our initial cake tasting. It was a quick 20 minute meeting to be introduced to the owner (who worked with us personally, which I thought was pretty cool), gathering information, and we tried a few basic cakes. Which were all delicious. Big A even admitted that he enjoyed it! GASP! I know.

Then I spent a good portion of the afternoon hanging out with this sweet girl:

Seriously... at 10 days old, this child has to be the most chill newborn I have ever come into contact with. She's a dream. Thanks Jackums and B-Ry for letting us crash your house for awhile and obsess over your baby girl!

Then it was time for the first grilling of the season. Yumm... Shishkabobs!

I love grilling for a few reasons. 1) It's relatively easy and there isn't a lot of clean-up. 2) You get to be outside. And 3) Big A comes out and hangs out and we get to spend some extra time together that we wouldn't if I was cooking inside. (And he let me do a photo shoot sooo... who doesn't love that! haha)

Mr. Fresh begging. Shocking.

Ya know... just two crazy kids in love.

A little better.

Sidenote cute story: Big A and I were talking about how nice it still was outside since it was like 8:30, and he turns to me and says, "I hope it is always like this" and I said, "The weather? Well, we live in Mass so probably not" and he said, "No, us. I hope that we are always able to have fun and enjoy being with each other. Forever." AWWWWW!!!

He's just so damn sweet sometimes!!!

Trying to get a pic with Mr. Fresh by bribing him with food. But, he just stole it off the fork when Big A wasn't paying attention. Sooo.... so much for THAT plan.

And a brief example of what Mr. Fresh does to the bed while we are gone. Notice the little pillow fort on the right. He's usually found there. Also, notice that he COULD have ripped the sheets moving everything, but he didn't. Because he wasn't pissed at us. FRESH!

I hope everyone else had a fabulous weekend! I for one am looking forward to the 3 day weekend coming up. It's going to be a long week getting there, but it will be worth it. We don't have many plans other than J$'s Graduation Party (Smarty just graduated with her MBA...brat! I kid... I'm so proud of her!).

Happy Monday Folks!

Smooches!

(Oh! And don't forget to vote for the Fitness link-up name. The poll is on the right under the "About Me" section. I'll keep it open until Thursday(ish) and we will see which one is the winnah!)

Friday, May 18, 2012

Workin' on my Fitness...

Hello Lovers,

Two posts... one day! You lucky ducks.

So... I decided... with some help... to stick with Friday for the fitness posts. It works for me and works for other people. That way I have a week until I have to admit how much I screwed things up over the weekend!

With the help of the lovely Leah, (seriously... check her out. Love her) we came up with a few different names:

  1. Miss. Fit Friday
  2. Foxy Friday
  3. Fight the Fat Friday
  4. Fit Friday
I put a poll up over on the right so you can vote. I'll announce the winner on Thursday and we can kick this ish off with a bang next Friday!

Just think of how freakin' smokin' we will be this Summer! (Although I'm supposed to be in a bathing suit next weekend and I'm not quite sure if my body image is up for it yet! EEK!)

Soo... vote people.... VOTE!!!

Smooches!

Friday's Letters

Can I just say that... SERIOUSLY?!... Thank GOD it's Friday!

Longest week ever. And I had Monday off.

Anyway... before I get started I wanted to let you know that I'm guest posting over at A Small Town Life. I met Lindsay through blogging (obviously) and we have bonded over the fact that we are both planning wedding. Well... we were both planning weddings. Lindsay got married last Saturday and has been on her honeymoon basking in wedded bliss all week! Check it out!

Now for some letters...

Dear Gigantic Spiders Living Outside my Apartment Door, seriously, you look like something out of a horror movie. I would like to be able to enter my apartment without running and screaming by you thinking that you are going to fall in my hair. Be gone.

Dear Fiance, you promised two weeks ago that you would get rid of the spiders. DOOOO IIIITTTT!!!

Dear Bridesmaids, thank you in advance for dealing with my OCD tomorrow when we put together the wedding invitations. We all know it isn't going to be pretty. Just smile and nod. It will be over soon!

Dear People at Work, there is nothing more annoying than standing four feet behind me whispering. Match that with running in offices to whisper... uber annoying. I get you have your clique but seeing as how I am the only other person here... please be respectful of the fact that you are annoying as eff sometimes and I want to snap! Thanks!

Dear Hiring Managers, please hire me! Anyone! Seriously! I need to get out of this place. Between getting screwed over in regards to new positions and the Whisper Twins... I'm going to lose it. I'm a great worker. PROMISE!

Dear Summer, get here please. And be nice. Thanks!

Dear Friday, please go by fast... until 4:30... then you may take as long as you want to finish.

Dear Fellow Weight Loss Peeps, I'm starting a weekly link-up. Something to help keep us on track. I know that I definitely benefited from Kristen's Firm Friday's (Hello, 15 lbs!) but since Kristen already has a smokin' bod, I'm going to take over until I'm one hot tamale. Sound good? Anyone have a preference of days? I was thinking Mondays, but we could do Fridays. What do YOU prefer?

That's all for today. You can write your own Friday's Letters too! Then head on over to Ashley's blog and link up!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Falling off the Wagon

I need an intervention friends.

Seriously.

I have fallen off the healthy life wagon. Wah.

I stopped exercising for two weeks to let my leg heal. BUT, I was supposed to start again this week. Back at it again.

How am I doing?

Monday: Wasn't too bad. I did devour a chocolate chip ice cream sandwich. But I also cleaned for 5 hours, so I more than made up for those calories.

Tuesday: I had a lovely fattening chicken sandwich with bacon, cheese, and ranch dressing. Which comes in at almost 550 calories. That was just lunch. Then I had a hot dog, some BBQ chicken, steak tips, and potato salad for dinner. And wine. Oy. I didn't even enter it all into MFP.

Wednesday: Ya know... Italian Grinder. Super healthy. Then Big A and I went to Olive Garden. We got DIPPING SAUCES for our bread sticks! And I drank 2 glasses on wine. Oh wait, let's not forget the 2 packages of peanut m&ms I scarfed at my desk. MOOOOOOOOOOOO!

And you know what? I felt like shit. My stomach hurt. I felt gross. I still do, even the next day.

I mean, don't get me wrong. It was all delicious. But seriously... what is going on with me. I should just be glad that I haven't gained all 8 million pounds back!

Unfortunately I don't think that I am going to reach my goal by the wedding. I have 15 pounds left. And about 15 weeks. And we all know how hard it is to lose those last 10 pounds.

I know I should be happy that I have made it this far, but that seems like a cop out. Ya know. "I tried"? Well, I did. But not my best. Which is upsetting.

I'm trying to get back on track though. Yes again... alcoholics don't quit the hooch the first time, and apparently I can't fight off my inner fat kid entirely the first (or 8,000th time).

I'm going to the gym with N tonight. We are going to be super healthy. I have a 14 day trial (because the one at work really doesn't have anything that I want to use other than a treadmill and elliptical which both seem like they could break at any minute) so I am going to see how I like it. Hopefully, I do because N and I have a whole plan on when we are going to go.

We are going to be workout buddies. Keep each other in check. And try to fight off one another when the inevitable "wanna just stay home and drink wine" comes. I just hope we are both strong enough. Wine is pretty powerful. Haha.

So... wish me luck... again. I'm going to need it.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

So What! Wednesday

This week I'm saying So What! if...


* I am writing this when I should be preparing for my staff meeting... whoops!

* I cleaned my entire house on Monday, but still haven't managed to attack the gigantic piles of laundry that need to be washed. The machine at our apartment is expensive... and we all know I'm cheap.

* I can't wait to get the invitations for the wedding done and out, purely for the fact that it will be one less gigantic box out of my living room.

* When the man working at the post office told me that he hopes that my marriage works out because I spent enough on postage, I totally got what he was saying. Haha.

* The things that come flying out of Big A's mouth still crack me up. Last night I asked him if he knew how handsome he was. His response? "Umm... yeah... obviously". He tried to cover that up with saying I tell him all the time, but we all know that he thinks he looks good. Haha. I guess self-esteem isn't a problem in our house.

* After having Monday off I don't want to work anymore. Ever. Why can't I just be a woman of leisure?

* I am deeply saddened by the fact that I have finished all 3 "Shades of Grey" books. I'll write a little response to what I think. But for now... I'm heartbroken.

* I am DYING for Summer weather... and a tan. This Irish girl needs a nice wedding glow and these rainy days are for the birds.

Now, it's your turn. Head on over to Shannon's blog and link up!

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Weekend Recap... A day late

Hello Lovers,

I'm back. I know. I know. You missed me terribly. You can dry your tears now.

I had yesterday off of work, which I had kind of forgot about for most of Sunday until I was driving home from my parents' house that night.

Do you how it feels to be driving home, at 10:30 PM on a Sunday... thinking about work the next morning... wishing that you could just keep driving and not have to deal with it... get home and start putting your stuff together.... and then remember that you DON'T HAVE TO FREAKING WORK TOMORROW???

It is a truly amazing feeling.

I started the morning off right by sleeping in. There's nothing more satisfying then waking up at 10:00 AM all snuggled up to a Border Collie on a rainy day.

A little while after I woke up, it stopped raining, so I was able to enjoy some of the nice day while it lasted. I went to the doctors, ran some errands and then headed home to my disaster of a house.

I ate lunch, read some of my book (I'm on Book 3 of the "Fifty Shades" series... I'm addicted. I have about 200 pages left of the third one and I am SO sad that it is almost over). Then I decided that enough was enough and it was time to clean.

Except... that... well... I NEEDED to put the finishing touches on one of the wedding invitations so that I could bring it to the post office to get weighed. Because it HAD to be done right then and there... (I LOVE procrastinating).

I got that done, spent $8 million on postage, and returned home. I then spent the next 4 1/2 almost 5 hours cleaning. The house was DISGUSTING!!!

That's the cool stuff that I do on my day off. I clean. Jealous? I know you are.

Then that was it. The day was gone. It was time to cook dinner and wind down.

I told Big A that I didn't want to work anymore. That I was totally down with the House Wife thing. He said he agreed and didn't want to work either, so we need to come up with a plan.

I called dibs on not working first. Because I'm smart like that. Heh.

The weekend was good. It was filled with Bday celebrations for Mama, A Baby Shower with Big A's family, Anniversary QT, and then some Mother's Day excitement. All in all. A good one. The weather was BEAUTIFUL so we were really lucky to have that.

It's supposed to be crappy for the next few days, but the weekend is supposed to be GORGEOUS again. I'm putting the finishing touches on some invitations projects and then my girls are helping me put them together on Saturday.

Hopefully, we will be sending them out the beginning of June... which really isn't that far away. EEK!

I need to start getting my stuff together, I have a bunch of projects that I haven't started and it would probably be in my best interest to do them sooner rather than later. OY!

GETTING CLOSE!

Hope ya'll had a wonderful weekend too!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Five Years of Happiness, Magic, and Love

I can't believe it has been a year. An entire year since my life changed FOREVER.

This day will always hold a special place in my heart. This was the day that I met the man of my dreams.

We fell hard, we fell fast, and we never looked back.

The night I met Big A... he told me that he might as well put a ring on my finger right then because he would never find anyone else like me. And then he kept talking about marriage.

I didn't really know what to think of it then. A little hesitant, slightly scarred, and a little jaded. But I'd never heard that pick-up line before. And no one had ever looked at me like that before.

Deep down into me. The real me.

Even in times when things weren't awesome between the two of us (I know...gasp...Big A and I aren't always perfect... I know this comes as a shock to you all) I could never doubt how he felt about me. It was in his eyes.

Four years later, I got ready for another anniversary. I told myself that our relationship was amazing and not to expect anything. That I was lucky to have him. And I was good with that. I told myself that it would happen in it's own time and that I needed to enjoy every single moment of that evening.

It had been a long, hard year working through some things. Learning to live together. It wasn't easy, but we made it through. Stronger and more in love than before. This was a day to celebrate. And that is what I told myself.

But then he came home. It was all a whirlwind. He was home. We were talking. He was looking at his present. I opened mine. And before I knew it, he was down on one knee. Asking me to be his forever.

Those words... "Will you Marry me?"

You wait your whole life to hear them. And you picture what it will be like. And nothing can compare to the actual feeling. The love. The amazement. The honor. The excitement. All swirling around in your head. And all you can do is cry. Because you are so overwhelmed with happiness and love. It is all just pouring out of  you.

In less than four months, I will say "I Do" to this man. The one I will be with forever. The future father of my children. My best friend.

Happy Anniversary to the Love of my Life! The past 5 years have been nothing short of amazing. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you!

Here are some pics from that magical night:

I'm still mad at myself for not fixing my ring. Although, I was a little distracted.

Hanging out with our friends at the auto parts store. We couldn't wait to share the news with everyone. We made EVERYONE come down and celebrate!

Drinking Miller Lite out of my brand new fancy wine glass. My first engagement present. (We will forget that I shattered it the next night. I DID replace it though!)

And if you want to hear the whole story. You can go here for the anniversary post. And here, here, and here for the Engagement story.

Want more? Click on the "Our Wedding" tab at the top and you can find all of the long, drawn out posts that I have written about the engagement and the wedding!

Friday, May 11, 2012

Friday's Letters

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I saw this last week and now... I HAVE to link up.

I'm brand new to Ashley's blog, but I have to day, I'm loving the Friday's Letters!

Here we go...

Dear Friday, please hurry up and be 4:30... we both know that I have no want or desire to work and if you were a true friend you would go by quickly... just sayin...

Dear Jerk Face Who Pulled Out In Front of me, that was a pretty bold move, scooting out from a side street and then literally stopping in front of me in the middle of the road. I let it go this time, but please know that next time, my gigantic beast of a car WILL hit you and I will have no problem with it because it won't be my fault. Learn to drive.

Dear The Knot.com,  thank you for charging my account, then crediting it when my order was back ordered, and then randomly charging my account again. I especially appreciate the overdraft fees that I had because of it. Don't you know that I am planning a wedding and money is tight? You can't just charge things willy nilly.

Dear Baby Maeve, You are so stinkin' cute that I can't even take it. I wish that I could just squish those little cheeks. Please continue to be a good baby! Your mama needs it! Also, please feel free to always be fresh to your Papa... it will make your Mama happy.

Dear Future Husband, I can't believe that tomorrow will mark 5 years of us being together. As much as you drive me insane...I do appreciate the fact that you are in my life forever. I can't believe that this is our last "dating" anniversary! (I will be posting a gushy anniversary post tomorrow)

Dear Mama, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GORGEOUS LADY YOU!!! You are the world's best Mama and I would be lost without you. Sorry you are stuck in a crappy meeting all day, but we shall have fun tonight!

Dear Wedding Planning,  Please finish yourself. I'm all done. Thanks!

Dear Boss Man, Please stop taking us out for Chinese food. You know I can't resist it and my diet is suffering.

Dear Last 15 Pounds, Watch your back! I will be back at it again on Monday and you won't know what hit you!

Dear Work, Please stop changing. I don't do well with it. I'm not a fan of it. Please. Just. Stop.

That's all for today. I need to pretend I'm working (when I'm really reading the second "Grey" book). Adios Chicas! Have a fabulous day!



Thursday, May 10, 2012

Welcome to the world Baby Girl!

Today is a beautiful day my friends.

A beautiful day.

If you are in the wonderful world of Massachusetts... then you know I'm NOT talking about the weather.

I woke up this morning to one of the most amazing text messages.

"Maeve Pearl 7 lbs 12.6 oz 20 1/4 inches born at 1:38 AM"

And my heart filled.

She was here. Finally. After almost 3 days of giving her mother hell (not to mention being overdue in the first place) this beautiful little girl entered the world.

I texted Jackums to tell her how absolutely perfect she was and to ask her how she felt.

"OMG, I had the worst past three days and it doesn't even matter anymore"

True words spoken by a mother in love.

It was incredibly emotional. To think of my friend. Someone who has been there for me through thick and thin, for years upon years. Seen me at my worst and seen me at my best. We have been through a lot together.

Now, she's a mother.

A mom.

It's incredible.

There have been lots of changes. People grow up. People grow apart. They get married. They buy houses. And now... they have babies.

And while a part of me wants to scream for everything to slow down. To just stop for a minute. To just let me think and breathe and accept all of these changes.

Another part of me can't believe how incredibly happy I am and absolutely honored I am that she will let me be a part of this little girl's life. (And I promise I won't teach her too many bad things...but know that I will be fun Auntie Kayleigh and sometimes we are going to need to play tricks... just saying...)

My heart is filled today. For someone who is so absolutely important to me and for someone who is so absolutely important to them.

Welcome to the world Maeve! I can't wait to meet you and be the best Auntie EVER!


Take it easy on your mom for a few days... she's been through a lot. And then you can go back to being a terror... like we all know you will be! I mean with that Mama and that Papa... look out world... Maeve is here!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

So What! Wednesday

This week I am saying So What! if...

* The next person who asks me what is wrong is getting punched in the face. I'm fine. Seriously. I just don't feel like getting into a big long chat at 9 in the morning when I have a bunch of crap to do (like... write a blog post... duh)

* I drank the 50 Shades of Grey kool-aid and I already half way through the book. Woah!

* Big A came home while I was reading and all I wanted him to do was let me sit quietly and read. Didn't happen.

* I'm obsessively texting Jackums to see how she is doing. This is my baby too ya know. (Heh) She went into labor yesterday and still hasn't had the baby. Poor thing. 

* When N mentioned last night that the wedding is only 16 weeks away, I all of a sudden got really hot, the room got a little fuzzy, and my stomach started doing flip flops. That's normal, right?

* I took next Monday off because I had a doctor's appointment and was going to bring Mr. Fresh to the vet, but couldn't get an appointment with the doc so I made it for today and asked Big A to take him... and I'm STILL taking Monday off. If it's his dog too, then he SHOULD take him to the vet.

* Big A has taken Mr. Fresh to the vet the last three times. Oops! It always worked out that a Wednesday was easier and Big A has Wednesdays off. Thanks Big A!

* I can't believe how fast this year is going. Seriously. It's almost half over. Freaking me out.

* I'm really struggling with the whole "when to have kids" debate. I don't know how I feel. And it changes constantly. I don't have to decide anytime soon... right?

* I've been looking for other jobs. I need to see what's out there. I need to move up in my career. And it seems like I'm going nowhere fast here. Anyone want to hire me?

* I haven't worked out in over a week. I'm resting my leg so I don't mess it up again, and all of my new workout plans include things I need my leg for. I'm going to be back at it on Monday. Full force... because this whole staying stagnant thing is for the birds!

Welp... that's all for today. Now head on over to Shannon's blog and link up!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

Happy 4 months until the wedding everyone! I know you are all super excited and counting down the days!

I just realized that I never mentioned the 5K yesterday.

Just completely glossed over it.

Wanna know why?

Because I didn't do it. Yep, after all that... I didn't do it. My leg was killing me and I knew that I wouldn't be able to even complete it walking at that point. Plus, I knew I would piss it off more and not be able to work out for longer of a time.

I know there are workouts you can do that don't affect your leg, but standing was a problem for the most part. Yeouch.

I'm happy to say though that the pain has gone from feeling like someone was stabbing me in the leg, to now if just feels like someone is pinching me. I'm going to give it a little more time before I do anything rash. And I think my running days are over. At least for now. I will still do the treadmill, but probably at a slower pace and probably on an incline.

I'm looking forward to switching things up. Running was getting BORING!
So that's that. Figured I'd keep you all posted.

In other news... I'm slowly but surely getting some things checked off the old to do list. I sat in bed last night watching TV will cutting about a million pieces of paper... well... more like 125 but it seemed like a million. Now I just need to put them together for what they will be needed for. Which shouldn't be bad, I just kept getting the little sticky dots stuck on my hand. Because apparently, at the age of 26 I still am having trouble with my motor skills. Ug.

Looking forward to getting some of this stuff done. Seeing as how my living room looks like this:

Which really isn't that bad since I have a huge amount of stuff over at my parents' house too. Thanks Mom & Dad!

Speaking of getting things done, I bought this for the rehearsal dinner. Thoughts? It's strapless, those are just the hanging string. Too fancy? Cute? Too 12 year old?


And let's just wrap up the pictures with a picture of our sheets. Yeap. Mr. Fresh ripped them again. I didn't bring him with me on a Saturday like I normally do and he ripped a small hole. I cursed him under my breathe and left again... and he made it bigger. He's a jerk. I said I wasn't going to buy anymore, but I caved when I got caught in it sleeping.


The new ones seems nice and sturdy so hopefully he won't rip them. They are the ones we registered for (and thank GOD we registered for more!) so I'm glad they are good. Plus, he is getting his nails cut tomorrow, so hopefully that will help too.

That's all I have for today. I am off to go pretend to work, but really continue reading the Shades of Grey book (Thanks Kristen and Shannon!). I read about 50 pages last night, but it hasn't turned dirty yet... I'm still waiting!

I'll give my full review when I'm done.

Smooches!